"It's Showtime Folks!!!"--Sting, TNA Wrestling

After watching "Lock, Stock and Two Smoking Barrels" a few weeks ago, I finally got down to watching "Snatch" yesterday...both were made by Guy Ritchie (Madonna's husband), and I honestly really liked both of these flicks. I think I like "Lock, Stock..." better though because I liked all the characters and the concept better. Jason Statham was featured in both of these movies and because Kenric asked me how Transporter and Transpoter 2 were, I decided to download these flicks and watched them today. Wow, I've just watched 4 movies featuring Jason Statham and man what I love about this guy is his accent. People with British or Australian accents are so cool...because we're not used to hearing these guys around us in a typical day in Canada, I swear I could listen to tapes of these British/Australia peeps talking. :P

So anyways, Transporter 2 was a lot better than the first so if you watch the first and are disappointed, don't let that stop you from watching the 2nd one. I guess the action sequences were just way better and not as cheesy as the first one. The story just flows a lot better and we get to see more nice cars in the second flick!!! :)

I haven't been doing much at home these last few days. This is the one week were I haven't done much because most of the DVBS work has been taken care of in terms of prep. Just got to decorate the sanctuary but that won't happen 'til I'm back from my trip to Disney World. Speaking of which, that's in less than a week!!! :P

During my time at home, I've had some time to do stuff....some things I enjoyed (like the movies), but some I regret. For example, I dug back into my junior high year books as I thought this would be a good idea to reminise on the past. However, for some reason, this activity didn't do very much for me. I actually ended up reminising on the bad things about junior high. I read some of the comments that people wrote to me in my yearbooks and now looking back, I just think "What the heck?!?!" Did they mean to insult me then? Maybe I was blind then but reading things now, I think to myself, "Is this how I was preceived?!?" I don't miss junior or senior high one bit. School was just so lame. I already had the prespective of the outside world and the future in my mind while all these people were just looking to do anything for a good time. That you Jesus for elementary schools!! :)

I really feel for the youth right now at CPC...there's just so much around their school to influence them and I really just pray for them that though I want them to have a good time, that their relationships with Jesus will define who they are. God keep them safe. Junior/Senior High schools just create such a false atmosphere as to how the world is. Priorities are definitey shifted. What this generation will go through will likely be more terrible then anything I had to endure so I'll definitely keep you guys in my prayers......

Wow, that was negative....haha....don't worry...it's all good. I guess I was just so different before coming to know Jesus through the relationship I have with Him now. Who I was back then, and who I am now is vastly different.....I guess opening up the doors to the past can be painful still, but God just has shown me that in my brokeness He took me in and truly made me a new person....Hence the verse in 2 Corinthians: "Therefore if anyone is in Christ, He is a new creation--the old has gone, the new has come!" Thank God for the new me!!! :)

It's Tuesday Already?!?!

Well, it really feels like a Monday to me. Usually Monday, is the day I take to relax and recooperate from the loss of sleep due to the weekend. However, yesterday was the DVBS shopping day and I can't believe how early I woke up...I am not ready to be a teacher. I wish I chose an occupation that didn't require me to wake up so early in the morning! :P I usually am psyched for DVBS around this time as being lazy and having no work to give me a purpose in life sucks but I am really enjoying my months off this time around...I am not ready for DVBS to start.....:P

Speaking of which, I've been thinking about next year and I just need to get through the next semester becuase it's going to be stressful. I'm really praying for a great partner teacher/principal/school again. I was blessed this year but next year is a very important year isn't it? :)

I've been thinking about school also because I processed my student loan for the next year and this is going to be my last loan!! Hooray!! I can't believe the debt I will be in but hopefully I can pay it off in a few years. So yeah, I guess that's why my mind is in school mode.

This year will be another milestone year of my life....a lot of it has to do with because of the graduating and looking for a job thing....it's like I'm going to be introduced into manhood honestly! I guess after that, all that there's left to do is get married and have kids right? Haha...well no! Those steps can't be the end in our journey of life can they? A part of me is eager to get all those things done so I can rest easy in my comfort zone and be secure in the safe little world I will create for myself but the other side of me is looking forward to the prcoess of it all....whether it'd be fast or slow....God wants us to enjoy the process of getting the job we want...and getting the woman we want! :) Just gotta live it one day at a time and rest in God's goodness each and everyday right?

I have to honestly keep reminding myself to do that becuase I'm just such a mess. I'm usually the rational guy and act accordingly to that but I'm also the spontaneous guy...just look at the purchases I make...you think if I thought it through, I'd buy everything I own today? :)

PATIENCE, PATIENCE, PATIENCE......

Gwen Stefani and Gavin Rosedale are my Mommy and Papi!!!!

So watching X3 for the 2nd time was pretty fun with the church peeps this weekend. I know some of those I watched it with liked the second one better, and I can understand why that is. However, I'll have to say the third one takes the cake for me!!! The good thing about watching it for the second time was that at the end of the credits, there was an extra scence and I HAD to go watch it again to catch it! So if you haven't watched X3 but plan to, make sure you stay for the closing sequence!

We went to Montana's for eats after that and I had the Riblets (1 lbs.) and it only cost $7.99 for it when the menu said $12.99...I have no idea but SCORE!! Nice deal...maybe the mean waitress liked me....:) What was bad about the experience though was sleeping with "rib gases" in me. I wasn't farting or anything...(jeez you guys are sink for thinking that!). However, once in awhile, I'd let out this burp and it would taste aweful....have you ever had a gross tasting burp? Well, I went to bed and woke up for church the next day with the aweful taste of pig lard/bbq sauce in my mouth...it was a nasty after taste....jeez, remind me not to eat ribs before sleeping again...that was really disgusting guys! :P

Hey so it appears that Gavin Rosedale and Gwen Stefani had their baby on May 26th and that's crazy because that's the same day as my brother's brithday. What's crazier is the fact that they had a son and nammed him KINGSTON! YES, I'm famous!!! What a great choice in name by the way guys; that's freaking awesome!!! :)

Haha...my bro finished watching Lost season 1 in 2 days and a bit. He seemed quite satisfied in it all. He got hooked during season 2 so now that he's watched the prior episodes, he doesn't have to keep asking me questions about why things are the way they are...and now to get my other bro to finish the season (not that he's started haha...but he wants to)!!! :P

It was fun to watch Prison Break with you new watchers at Phil's haha. Oh the suspense! Go LINCOLN!!!!! That name rocks....I want to name one of my kids that so I can call him "LINK" for short haha....

Well that's it for now guys...gotta get dressed as Louise is coming to pick me up to do some DVBS shopping! Have a super day everybody! :)

Flooding in the Air!!!!

Yesterday was my bro's birthday so we watched X3 and it was a good experience. Ooops, i just realized that I read someone that we need to stay until the credits are done to catch something from the movie but I forgot about that.....hmmm..I'll have to get it the next time then hahaha. We were quick to leave the theatre.

We had to drive my bro home and then to downtown to get to church and this for me was really agonizing because we had to drive in rush hour traffic towards home first and then try to make it into the downtown area where there were a lot of traffic problems that day. I was getting cranky on the way to church and I kept thinking, "Dang, I can't wait to get there!" Only when I got to church, I saw how bad our church was leaking. What was beautiful about the experirence was seeing the church people care so much abou their home and try to get everything organized. I just couldn't believe it at first. That part was amazing now that I think about it. My initial thoughts were actually ones of shock though. Crystal noticed how shaken up I was and a part of it was because I was in the car for so long and all but a part of it was just seeing the church so vulnerable. I know it's not about me placing hopes in a building or anything...but man, I've come to think of this place as my home (no matter how creepy it is at night!). I can now imagine how shocked I'd be if my real home went through this. It just got me really shaken up. I just felt this vulnerability.....

YAC was pretty fun haha. Because of the flooding, KFC was cancelled so a lot of kids were told it was cancelled that night for YAC too haha. So really, because of YC and flooding, I think over half of our kids were gone. We had a good turn out though as Brenda, Jiffany, Zevida, Agnes, Florence, Enoch, Daniel Mok, Truman, Kendrick, Kenric, Crystal, Hannah, Geoffrey, and Andrew participated (Did I miss anyone?). Haha....it turned out to be a blast and my only regret is that more of our youth couldn't participate in this disgustingly fun event. I don't think most of them have seen this stuff so it was a real shocker for those who were there. One of the hightlights of the night: Truman eating sardines WAHAHAHAHAHAHAH. Jenny, if you read this, can you send me the pictures you have of the night please? :) Or was it from Geo's camera? Geo, if it's from your cam, can you send it to me please? Haha...I just don't know who's it was.....:P

Hmmm...I wonder how those YC people are doing...God keep them safe and all the blessings upon them!

I'm a bit sad that I didn't go to YC but it's weird because I really think I needed to be here in Calgary. I had some good FELLOWSHIP time with some brothers and sisters...yes apparently we do talk about God and give each other encouragement! :P Sam, seriously, the talk we had at BPs was very nice in putting a certain thing into perspective in my eyes. I actually had a good opportunity to talk to a few of the youth about life, love and ministry so that was fun! I'm also very thankful for a talk with Crystal too I had at dinner time. It was nice talking about relationships. Haha, is this what we've been reduced too; are we just hoplessly addicted to love? LOL...I swear, it feels so good but yet it's all so foreign and so scary at the same time! Ahhh God is so good......praise You for the pouring that's been placed in my life and other people's lives around me lately....You're so GOOD!!!!

What a Relief!!

Desperation, Needing U
Every last breath
I scream for you
Shatter me into a million pieces...Make me new

Crush me, tear me, break me, mold me
Make me what U want me to be
I am ur's for U to use
Oh, Take and Replace me with U
---From the song "Replace Me" by Family Force 5

Look I know some of you hate reading spiritual posts, but honestly, the most exciting things in my life are from God right now. I've been listening to lots of new music from bands I've never even heard of in the Christian Rock scene, and man, there are A LOT of EMO bands out there! :P

Speaking of God, I found myself worrying about DVBS numbers and finding van drivers. Seriously, we talk about how great having vans are but they don't help if we don't have drivers!!! :) I found myself becoming very worrysome but God reminded me that if we just not be anxious about anything, but by prayer and petition submit our requsts to God, we should have peace that transcends all understanding and so I thought, "Why am I so worried?" Geez...relax! So I prayed about things last night minus the worry and hence, most of the stuff has been taken care of with the van drivers at least! So I guess I should just relax and let the registrations fill up right? :)

Wow, is it really two more weeks 'til Orlando time? Is it really just over a month away until DVBS hits high gear? Wowsa, where is all my time going?

I'm thankful that we've finally reached the end of season finales this week because my heart can finally take a break and I can now take some time away from the idiot box. Kenric's mom cooked us dinner for the big Wednesday finale and we got to watch Lost and American Idol. Taylor Hicks?!?! Can you say "worst idol ever?" Or is Fantasia worse? Tough choice......and Lost was really confusing but very, very suspensful....dang, I can't wait 'til season 3..I feel like things are exciting again...but you know, you just know that things won't be explained and when they are, they will just take forever doing it....how annoying, yet how excitingly suspseful....oh the irony...:P

It's Been a Nice Day Off....Or Has It?!?! :)

Wow, what an exciting ending to 24! It's been a slow season (if I compare it to the rest of the seasons I've seen of the show), but it was a good ending and I am definitely anticipating season 6. Too bad we'll probably have to wait until January 2007! :P

The hockey game was really intense today. I was satisfied with the victory of the Hartford Whalers---I mean, Caroina Hurricanes! :) Hmmmm...this will be a close series I think but hopefully it will be the 'Canes vs the Oilers for the cup baby!!!! :)

I finished "I Kissed Dating Goodbye" and now am reading "Boy Meets Girl." What I like about Josh Harris' writing is that he reminds us that though he believes his suggestions are accurate, they're not universal because we're all so different and come from different walks of life. A lot of what he says is true and I have no problems agreeing so I recommend this for anyone who has an open heart/mind in regards to wanting to learn more about healthy relationship forming. Anyone want to borrow the first book? :)

A verse I read today during devos today that spoke to me:

“Pride leads to disgrace, but with humility comes wisdom.” Proverbs 11:2 (NLT)

God knows I hate it when I've done something or came up with an idea and someone else takes the credit so how much more would God hate it if I tried taking the credit for his glorious work? Yup, God help me to never try to brag about something as if it were me but may it always be about you Lord.....it sounds so cliche, but I honestly pray for a level-head because I know how easily it is for anyone to be deceived by their own hearts....

Seriously, I honestly thought that with the youth, I would have a lot of things I could reach them with because of the life experiences God has allowed to happen to me. I found myself talking to one of the youth about a situation that is happening in her life which happened to me. I thought that if I told her my experience and the lessons I've learnt form them, it would be enough to spark some common sense into her. Boy was I wrong! I wonder if what my experience had any significant impact on her at all. Did she just take it with a grain of salt? I always justified my experiences with the fact that I could tell my stories to others and that they would be impactful to the youth I worked with one day and now that I'm here, I'm questioning things. God, was I really as unreachable when I was that young too? Are those experiences really to be inspiring to others who may face the same as me? God, you sure you want me to be a youth leader? I know it's not about my words, but I just really pray that you'll have control over this person's situation and please don't let her make the same mistake as I did......if it's avoidable, please don't let her fall for the same trap....In Jesus Name.....

"Oh the Clever of Me!!!"

That is a quote I'm borowing from Stef Newbs but it certainly describes my actions yesterday....:P

I ended up going to 7-11 yesterday after dinner and I was wearing my Oilers jersey that too. Man, lots of people stare at me when I've been wearing that jersey. It wasn't just at sev, it was also during dinner too. Anyways, this one guy who was staring at me then says, "Hey go Oilers eh?!" And he raises his hand up wanting a high five. Now honestly, I really am not a high five person. I have friends who are and yes, that's great and all, but I really am not that type of person. Why? Because high fives are so open ended. When you proceed to give someone a high five, the beginning usually works out well but everyone has a different way of closing their high five. Honestly, it's too hard to anticipate what "kind of high five" a person wants to give...hence, the reason why I hate them. The person had his hand up in the air vertically so I made contact with him like a normal high five. End of story right? Actaully, he wanted to proceed to step two where as I was already in the process of ending so that was awkward......dang it, can't we just all decide on one form of greeting in this world? Awkward hand holding is not a position guys should place themselves in. :P

Now, that's not the end of my story. Some of you probably know that at my house, we don't usually eat anything unless we're in the kitchen or on the dinner table. We actaully avoid eating in our living room area haha as to prevent getting a mess anywhere but let's just say I had an incident with my slurpee last night....my blue slurpee.....thanks to everyone who helped me clean up...it doesn't look like the Shout spray has bleached my carpet! :P I didn't knock over all my slurpee...there was about 1/4 left before I picked it up. When we were cleaning, I put the cup on the kitchen counter and after mad panic, I realaxed with my hands on m hips only my elbow hit the slurpee cup on the counter and guess what...haha, yup, the rest of the slurpee came crashing down onto my kitchen floor. It was honestly one of the funniest things ever. I wasn't that embarassed....come on, we all need to have a good laugh at ourselves....but it's funny how things work. Sometimes I think the Lord teases---wait! I mean, tests us.....The Lord tests us....:P

Has anyone picked up Starfield? Have it on preorder but I read some reviews on it and it's mediocre..I'm thinking of picking up The Elms' new disc. I listened to it last week but have yet to buy it.....maybe I'll do a swap and not pick up Starfield and pick up The Elms....:P

FREE

By Shawn McDonald




I feel like the weight of the world is, Crashing down on me
& some how I just don't believe, This how it is suppose to be
All this expectation on, the way I'm suppose to live
Becomes my minds distraction, with nothing left to give

You said your burden is light & Your load is no more
You said your ways are right & in you I will soar

I want to be free, Free to dance & free to sing
Free to live & learn & free oh, free to be me

I feel like my Heart is being Beat, down into the ground,
In you I'm longing for some peace, to be found
I know the heaviness that's, making me cold
Is stealing my youthful soul & making me old

You said your burden is light & Your load is no more
You said your ways are right & in you I will soar

I want to be free, Free to dance & free to sing
Free to live & learn & free oh, free to be me


Shawn McDonald talked about in an interview how becoming a Christian Artist, there were different expectations of him. Don't you just feel the same pressures when you take on leadership roles on stage or in the spotlight? It's a feeling like you can't screw up anymore. This song totally speaks on that issue and it's my prayer for all of you (and me), who feel those very pressures to experience freedom from that....... may we be free to be who God has made us to be and to let go of the controlling expectations that we and the world entices us with.....

Talk to me while I'm on the can Okay?!?!

So things have been very relaxful at my Cousin's place here in Regina. Jarrett is always at school and Alexis is the cutest baby ever. I saw my 2nd Aunt and Uncle today but the time was cut short because I was in the middle of watching Prison Break and 24 lol and I had to fit a meal with them in between the transition from Prison Break to 24 lol. It's all good because we're going to a restaraunt for dinner tommorrow so no TV as a distraction. :P

When Jarrett came home from school today, it was funny because I was in the can and he was looking for me. He went downstairs, and I could hear he was looking for me and my bros told him I was in the washroom. Jarrett thought it was okay, he could wait for me in the hallway.....but then he came up and started talking to me about how he had a spelling test coming up and said, "You know what Kingston? I'm glad when you visit...I don't get to see you much." Haha...what a kid...love him to death. He's surprised me because he's really smart and a very eager to learn student....he's the type of kid any teacher would want. So there you go, it's not just Alexis I love....:P

I wanted to do lesson planning and/or read in the car or in Regina but that hasn't happened yet. I want to enjoy my time off...despite knowing the fact that I have self-imposed deadlines to meet! :) Haven't done either....haha....Currently, I'm reading "I Kissed Dating Goodbye" and it's good because it has reminded me of a lot of the reasons of why I've been doing the things I've been doing. Honestly, a part of me has wanted to follow my heart more than my head with this stuff...but I know, the book offers explanations of emotional barriers with great reasons as to why we need to keep implementing them. A lot of the stuff I'm reading, I already beleive in but it is very encouraging to know I'm not the only one who beleives in these certain standards the book talks about.....:P I plan on reading "Boy Meets Girl" afterwards. Good stuff to read if you think you're ready to date....you could be surprised....:P

I am glad I didn't play football then if the mosquitoes are out and attacking you all haha. I don't have any yet. So are we still going to play every Sunday if those bloodsuckers are out? I'd rather blade and escape from their grasp! :)

Travel Time

I'm really excited to be leaving tommorrow to go visit my cousin's family in Regina and as well as for my trip to Orlando next month. However, a part of me is still kind of "Meh" about it all because I am not looking forward to the travel time. It's going to be 7 hours in the car going to Regina and it's nice and all but you know....just nothing to do. Maybe my family should get a car with a TV in the back to keep little ol' me occupied hey? Haha. That's about the same time span my flight to Orlando will be too.

One bad thing about vacation time is that all we do is sit and eat. Man, no time to get excercise and everyone in this family is getting or is already fat so we really don't need anymore weight gain do we? Haha....looks like the parental genes are catching up with us.....NO!! Fight it!!!! DAHHHH!!!! Impossible to resist!!! :P

"Break the Spell of the Typical"--Mutemath

So it took awhile, but I'm caught up on blogs. :P Jackson's Wednesday post brought up some really good points. I think so much about what God wants me to do. Honestly, I feel like I have so much figured out. I want to be a teacher. I want to get married. I want to settle down and just enjoy life. Simple right? It's all figured out?

Is that what God wants though? I have no idea.....I mean, I have all these plans for my life, but if that's not what God wants, how can I honestly say I'd be happy with my life? Can anyone say they'd be willing to just settle for a mediocre life and be happy with it especially if it were outside of God's will? I don't want to be in that zone; it's scary to even think about...

The last chapter of Velvet Elvis talked about how we need to as Christians not just think about getting into heaven but rather we should be thinking about how to bring heaven on Earth as it is now. It really spoke to me. Am I doing anything to fight against the hell on this Earth that people are creating? What am I doing to fight against poverty? injustice? Am I doing anything to fight this or am I just living the typical life and trying to fend for my own personal happiness?

Sometimes I think God would be the most pleased with me if I just went to some third world country and became a missionary...:P...or even a full-time pastor. Haha!!!! Then, reality sits upon me. Those plans I've made....yup, they conflict with possibilities of ministry as a career. Oh and can't forget those student loans too....yup I'm tied down aren't I?

Man things couldn't be even more confusing! Wait, God, they could be couldn't they? Lord, I'll just be content with the current confusion and ask for you not to allow anymore in my life for now...thanks Lord....

Can I be honest here?

So today, I was hoping on doing some lesson planning for DVBS but I ended up not doing so because my bros had the day off (for whatever reason). We went for lunch at Deerfoot Mall for all you can eat dim sum and we were so full (and we only ate 2 plates of food!). I think it's the grease really.

After that, we went to the post office and I picked up a package for yours truly. What can be better than the feeling of opening a brand new set of packaged figures?! Yeah baby....it was seriously fun fun! I love my new Street Fighter figures!!! :)

I took a nap today too...but it was on the ground on my back...hasn't happened like that in a long time. Haha.....I was surprised when I woke up that I fell asleep like that. :P

So I'm really frustrated about round 2 of the playoffs right now. Well, Carolina at least is getting the job done but it don't look good for the Oilers, Avs or the Sens. I think the Sens have the best chance of turning things around but man oh man....this is a really frustrating series....:)

I've also been looking at booking airplane tickets for the past few days...as some of you are aware, I may be going to away next month. It's frustrating becuase there are so many things to take care of...hmmm...well hopefully it all works out...with booking hotels, activities and plane tickets. If not, at least I'll be able to visit my cousin soon. I leave this Sunday......Saskatchewan, here I come....:)

Are we really better off going to church???

Oh baby, I'm so tired. I don't know why. I can barely think straight. It's not that I haven't gotten enough sleep today; I slept well actually. Still, as I was reading Holepuncher's blog, I couldn't agree more...maybe I'm tired too because of the church cleaning on Saturday? My immune system was definitely weakened that day becuase of the dust and all. I was sneezing all night and even on Sunday too as I probably didn't get enough sleep becuase I had to go to church the next day too. My allergies have cleared up (thank you Jesus!) with some good rest, but I'm fatigued. Church is great for the spiritual growth right but is it to benifit us mentally, physically, psychologically? Oh baby, after this weekend...I'm beginning to think otherwise! :P

Yesterday, I went to the comicbook conevtion in Calgary and it was the biggest one I've ever been to. Hopefully, next year, things will work out better as the main artist I wanted to see (David Finch) didn't show up and the sketch I wanted from Takeshi Miyazawa. AHHH!! You jerk!! The highlight was definitely getting Omar Dogan to draw me a sketch of Cammy in her Shadowloo outfit...oooh baby! :P Grace bought me a couple of peices inked by Art Thibert and he signed those bad boys....what a day to waste $$ and hang out with the nerds! Thanks to all those who came with me; it was a sweeter experience because of it!

That's all I can type right now...man, my brain's fried...see ya'll later! PAYCE!

FREE COMIC BOOK DAY!!!

Hey gang,

Man, I'm up early.....but hey, don't forget, Saturday is Free Comic Book Day!!! This is the 5th one they've had...but can you believe that I've never gone to this event!?! I must be Petarded. There are 28 different comics you can potentially grab all for free on this day! I want to grab Runaways/X-Men basically because although X-Men is my favorite team in the whole wide world, Runaways is definitely the best thing Marvel has right now; they're becoming one of my all time favorites. So this is the crossover of a lifetime baby!!!

"What's the big deal about comic books anyway?" you may ask.

Here's an answer from http://www.freecomicbookday.com:

Comic books are an original American art form, created in the early days of the twentieth century. They are fun to read, featuring a wide range of diverse storylines that capture the imagination of the readers, and have survived: the dominance of radio, the ubiquity of television, the spread of color and sound motion pictures, the rise of videogames, and the Internet. That's worth celebrating in our book, and as this site continues to grow and evolve, you'll see even more information about this wonderful medium.

So there you have it folks. For more answers to frequently asked questions about this event (such as which comics are be given away, which stores are participating, etc.), follow the link below!!!

FREE COMIC BOOK DAY FAQ

So go have fun. In fact, go hit a comic book store and spread the love! Bring someone on a hot date to some of the coolest stores around in Calgary!!! :) Have fun!!! :)

ALL ABOARD!

Hooray, I've got the DVBS poster all finished and it's going on display soon. Once I have the brochures printed off, then we're really ready to go aren't we?!?! It took me 3 hours to do something so simple, but man, I'm glad it tuned out okay. I honestly don't have Sarah's art skills but I made up for it by getting lots of bright neon poster paper. So though Sarah's art skills weren't avaliable to draw people's attention to the poster, perhaps my neon sign will!!! :) It's all coming together thank you God...but man, so much to do still.....

To everyone who gave me some advice and questions about my previous post, thank you all...REALLY! Don't get me wrong guys, I'm not a mess about the whole "hiatus" with the love of my life...but it does get hard when what feels like the other half of your soul is somewhere else.....HOWEVER, man, it's been so great lately. I've told some of you already about this but I'm honestly just having a GREAT TIME WITH GOD. I just have been spending more intimate times with Him and finding those MOMENTS with Him...where I just sit there and enjoy His presence. Even if I say nothing...I get goose bumps all over and I sit there and am in complete AWE of His Majesty and Wonder. Those moments are so precious. I feel like I have fallen in love with God all over again and that never gets old does it? I know Christianity is not about the feelings and because of that I never complain much if things are going crappy spiritually...but man, I LOVE THIS FEELING!! Keep it coming Lord!!!

Pray For Me.....

If there's anything that's been on my mindset the most these last few years it's described in the lyrics below. I honestly only have been listening to this tune for the last few months, but it feels like it describes the journey I've been on what feels like forever. We're bound by time aren't we? Even if you find the one who can reach the deepest part of your soul--the one that makes you happy to be alive--isn't timing everything? Don't we have to follow the rules and restrictions bound to us to receive The Blessing? Timing is just one of those factors that make all the difference....

Pray for me
By Plumb

Here is where the road divides
Here is where we realize
The sculpting of the father’s great design

Thru’ time you’ve been a friend to me
But time is now the enemy
I wish we didn’t have to say goodbye
But I know the road he chose for me
Is not the road he chose for you
So as we chase the dreams we’re after

[Chorus]
Pray for me and I’ll pray for you
Pray that we will keep the common ground
Won’t you pray for me and I’ll pray for you
And one day love will bring us back around again

Painted on our tapestry
We see the way it has to be
Weaving thru’ the laughter and the tears
But love will be the tie that binds us
To the time we leave behind us
Memories will be our souvenirs
And I know that thru’ it all
The hardest part of love is letting go
But there’s a greater love that holds us

Here is where the road divides.....


All we can do is pray that it will work out. Just one more year..one more year....and maybe our roads will merge again, and we can finally walk on THE ONE AND ONLY PATH we want to take.....