Boxing Week Spending

Well it's hard to believe that after tomorrow, there is only one week left of Christmas holidays. It's been an interesting holiday. The dinner party at the Camerons, chatting @ Timmy's 'til 4am, the movie and home-made ice cream at Jackson's and to top it off, I finally got to some Boxing Week shopping. I went yesterday to Market but only to hem my new expensive sweats from Lulu (thanks Jon and Crys!). However, there was a huge line up and so I went back today and although there was no line up to get into the store, it took me forever to get into the fitting rooms and such. I decided to go to The Bay and I find that when I'm there, I buy the most random things. It's just a store where you can buy anything. I ended up coming out with some new boxers, towels and pillows!!! Haha...good deal but another hundred bucks down the drain! :P It's weird 'cuase I felt really old carrying the pillows to the car on the other side of the mall. I would've hit Banana Republic to look for some work clothes (getting ready for it...), but since I was carrying these huge pillows, I decided to just make a break for it and head home....maybe I'll go to the malls tommorrow to look for some clothes.

I didn't get to do Boxing Day shopping because I thought the chaos, stress and discomfort of it all was not worth any "good deal." So I didn't hit the malls on Boxing Day. However, I went to CP and picked up the new Switchfoot and Matt Redman CDs. I can tell you that Matt's "Beautiful News" really is a beauty. I've only listened to the Switch foot about once through but it sounds good so far...just have to give it a few more gos. I also bought the old Jars of Clay CD "If I Left the Zoo." Wow! Now I know why everyone's all about the "old" Jars of Clay. Though, I really appreciate the old, their new stuff just shows how talented they are for evolving and not giving us the same old stuff that gave them success in previous years. Speaking of music, I am really digging Nelly Furtado's latest song: "Say it Right." Yup, there's my recommendation for "pagen" music for the week!! :)

Speaking of Nelly, my bros and I were watchiing a special on Muchmusic on the hottest chicks of the year and Nellly Furtado was ranked higher than Jessica Alba. Umm....get real!!!! You can tell the fact Nelly is Canadian played a role in this. I can admit that Nelly's gotten to be a bit more attractive lately, but is she anywhere close to be in Jessica Alba's league? HECK NO!!!! Look at the pics below, and you be the judge! :)





It's Canadian Propaganda at its finest!!! :P

And lastly, I also bought a new Iceman and Nightcrawler figure from Phoenix Comics! Yeah baby...my toy collection is totally taking up too much room. At this rate, I'm going to have to consider purchasing a new bookshelf again! :P

Happy Birthday Jesus!

Hmmm...so I'm stuffed and sitting on the comp listening to music while my bros are playing Madden '07 and with their new Ipod Shuffles. :)

Some highlights of this Christmas Eve:

Almost actaully falling asleep during Evening Service! Good thing it wasn't during the part with the lighting of the candles...(my personal favorite!). I wasn't tired in the morning but I guess after having two services in one day, the lack of sleep hit me!!!

Carolling was AWESOME!!! MAN! I just had some really awesome talks with people and I'm just thankful for such wonderful caring people. The conversations were really something from God so THANK YOU to those who spoke into my life with some great reminders!

The Allreds house was a fun place to hang out as I really stuffed myself silly. The baked pitas w/ garlic, mayo and cheese....mmmm...so simple, yet so good!!!

The dogs were cool...I think I'd want a Mexican Hairless one day! :)

Afterwards, we went to Crystal's and Jon's to give some "Wii virgins" a chance to explore the new system and I swear, we should record videos of first time Wii players because it's the most entertaining thing I've been seeing in ages!

I got home at about 3:30ish and opened my presents and I wanted to say thank you to everyone for your thoughtfulness!


Anyways, I just wanted to wish everyone a Merry Christmas! I am very thankful for my family and my friends. It was a pleasure to spend the best season of all with you and for those who are travelling, come back home safely soon! :)

Success!

YES!!! I FINALLY BEAT ELEBITS!!!!!


......and now, back to Zelda.....:P

And I.....

....I celebrate the day that you were born to die
So I could one day pray for you to save my life --Relient K

I can't believe how close Chistmas is approaching this year and I think it has only hit me now that it's the holiday season!! Wow, tommorrow's the Christmas Banquet already!!!

It was a fun weekend as it was full of interesting adventures and hang outs. A highlight was when we went to Geo/Janet's and Janet forgot her key so we couldn't get into the house. We called Geo to drive back home to open the door for us but we actaully managed to BREAK INTO the Mah residence before Geo arrived! LOL..oh the fun and the exhiliration! I wish I could say that was the first time I've broken into a home, but it isn't. I had a previous incident of doing that when I was younger but I'll save that story for another time.....:P

Today I woke up really late and I think I overslept too because I was really tired all day. I ended up not eating dinner at the usual time and decided to go out and do some shopping because I really needed to get out of the house and shake the cobwebs out of my head. I ended up buying the component cables for my Nintendo Wii so that it would display images a lot nicer for my HD TV. My bro is playing Madden '07 as we speak and the graphics are nice! :)

I also ended up at T&T and I really just love having the store so close to my house. Praise God that this supermarket was built near us because it is such a pleasant place to shop. I remember when I lived with my mom, she would take me to the T&T in Marlborough and finding parking was nearly impossible there! Well everytime I've gone to the one in Harvest Hills, I've had no problems finding a spot to park and they're always close to the entrance. It's not as packed as Marlborough and it's just such a joy to go buy stuff there. I can't wait 'til all the rest of the stuff is done being built there. So far, I've seen some fancy furniture store, an Italian restaurant, a dance studio, a Pho place and a Timmy's. I heard they're building a restaruant like Sun Chu Kee and Calgary Court up here (same owner), and I can't wait for that! I wonder what else they're going to build up here?

Lately I've been thinking about how much has changed in my life over the past year and I'm starting to ponder if we, as humans, usually embrace change or do we fight and/or fear it? And how do we know when change is suppose to happen? Do we initiate the change or do we let the change begin first? Hmmm......

Magnificent Obsession

Wow, it's all coming by so fast. And yet I realized today that tomorrow is the last chance I have to give the youth a Christmas gift because some won't be at the dinner and YAC is cancelled next Friday. Hmmm...just got them something small. I was thinking of the YAC committee doing Christmas cards together and giving them out but since it's so late in the game, scratch that off! :P

I found some Wii remotes for Kenric! Yes, I'm not the only Wii player in our church lol!

Tonight is the last episode of Survivor until Sunday's 3 hour season finale!!! My bro has a guess that instead of tribal council voting between 2 people, it will be a vote between 3 people. INTERESTING THEORY!!! :P

God's been really good. He's been speaking to me about stuff which is weird because I usually find that my relationship with Him is at its best when I'm really busy and relying on Him to get me through things. And yet, I've had a great reflective time with Him....and that's contradictory to past happenings . He reminded me of something in a book I read yesterday. I think it's funny how easy it is to forget certain things. We think life lessons can teach us things but its easy to lose sight. God touches us and it's great and yet you'd think we could remember the lessons and yet even the Israelites in the bible kept forgetting. Which is why I like to journal things and write things on my blog 'cuase it's a good way to reflect and think, "oh yeah, God was teaching me THAT a few months ago....why did I forget?" :P

So I've had a song on my heart lately (yes, another one!). It's a few years old, but it's my favorte Steven Curtis Chapman song (And it even won best song of the year for 2003!). Many of you have heard it, but here's the lyrics in case you've forgotten:

Lord, You know how much
I want to know so much
In the way of answers and explanations
I have cried and prayed
And still I seem to stay
In the middle of life’s complications
All this pursuing leaves me feeling like I’m chasing down the wind
But now it’s brought me back to You
And I can see again

This is everything I want
This is everything I need
I want this to be my one consuming passion
Everything my heart desires
Lord, I want it all to be for You, Jesus
Be my magnificent obsession

So capture my heart again
Take me to depths I’ve never been
Into the riches of Your grace and Your mercy
Return me to the cross
And let me be completely lost
In the wonder of the love
That You’ve shown me
Cut through these chains that tie me down to so many lesser things
Let all my dreams fall to the ground
Until this one remains

You are everything I want
And You are everything I need
Lord, You are all my heart desires
You are everything to me

You are everything I want
You are everything I need
I want You to be my one consuming passion
Everything my heart desires
Lord, I want it all to be for You
I want it all to be for You

FM Static...no, not the BAND!! LITERALLY!!!

Today I received two packages in the mail and I was only expecting one. Well it turns out one of them was a package I took to the post office to send to Alexis and Jarrett that was returned to us. The box I shipped was used to ship some stuff to me a week before and the address wasn't taken off lol so it had two different ones on opposite sides of the box. I took it back to the post office though and didn't have to pay for reshipping it! Whoo hoo! :)

I took the car to get washed finally and there's just some strange satisfaction in seeing your baby all clean and presentable. :) It was expensive and I had to buy gas to get a discount on the carwash. Man, this having a car thing gets expensive! :P

I was considering doing Christmas shopping today and when I got into the car, I realized that I have actually finished my Christmas list lol. I've had it done for awhile now and didn't realize it. It's a nice feeling. I don't know if I'm going to write cards this year guys. Sorry if this offends some of you people but I'm just feeling lazy this year. Plus, I don't think I have much to say that'll be any different than any other year I've written cards lol. You don't need a card from me to know that I care do you? :P Man, what kind of husband am I going to be to my wife if I said THAT to her! :) Then again, none of you peeps are my wives lol....

I've been listening to tunes from Relient K's Christmas CD and I was going to buy it online but I can't find it anywhere. Apparently, it's quite the collectors item as it's very rare and going for about $40 Canadian on ebay right now. So the solution for me was downloading the CD lol. It's pretty good if you like alternative Christmas tunes! :) Yeah baby, yeah!!!!

On a final note...do you know how I was writing about how God was speaking to me in different ways as of late? Well I have to tell you something because I was reading a book at my desk in my room last night and then I heard this strange buzzing noise. I couldn't make out where it was coming from at first but then I realized that it was coming from my clock's radio. Even though the switch and the volume were "off," the radio was in fact on. I could hear voices in it and I thought, "God, are you trying to get me to turn on the radio?" And so even though the clock radio was switched onto "off," I turned the volume dial and it was locked clearly onto Shine FM. I tried to turn the radio off by switching the switch from on to off back and forth repeatedly but it wouldn't go off. Suddenly, I put the book down and said, "Okay God, if you want me to tune into something, I'll stop reading and listen." So Focus on the Family came on and it was a special addition. It was featuring the first of a two part sermon from some woman in Texas and let me tell you, the sermon was AWESOME! I have not heard such a sermon with such quality in ages!

Anyways, I wasn't going to blog about this because I thought it wasn't anything special..."maybe my radio is broken," I figured. However, I was doing the same thing today: reading at my desk and I checked to see if the radio was on and it wasn't. I turned up the volume and it wasn't going on. So I switched it to "on" and yes, the sound of Shine came through lol. So kind of weird how things can happen like that. God was totally speaking to me about a certain area in my life and I think it could be applied to another area...but we'll wait and see to find out. :) Anyways, kind of neat how stuff like that works. I am going ot head off now and go listen to part 2 of this sermon. Take it easy folks! :)

*UPDATE* No part two!?!? What the....must've been a repeat. This is getting weirder by the minute! :P

Every Great Story Has a Beginning

I’m not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
I’m not missing you
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
I got life to do
I know I’m usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
But this time it’s different
I don’t even feel the distance
I’m not missing
I’m not missing you

I'm looking forward to picking up the above song from Stacie Orrico's new CD hitting stores in January. Yeah I know, I'm a pop music junkie but I can't help it. :)

And yet the above lyrics are finally ringing true in my life. It's been about half a year and you'd think that it'd be about time for a shift in mind-set for me eh? :) I think the toughest part of this transition was feeling so miserable but yet not being able to express that to the people who care the most about me. I don't know...maybe I kept it all in because I didn't think anyone could understand. Yet others knew how I was doing but didn't think it was that bad. Or maybe I know certain people would try to minimalize what I was feeling. Don't you hate that? People try to reason with you when you're feeling emotionally confused and you think logic matters when someone is hurting? You just think, "don't tell me my pain isn't real becuase if it didn't, why would I feel like I lost a part of my soul?"

And yet now here I stand.....God has not left me through it all. I've had some down time to relax and reflect upon everything and it's been good. This past half year has been the most trying time for me in a long time as it's been awhile since I've been truly tested to this magnititude. And yet, it's through this storm that God has really shown himself so real in my life...more real and more practical than ever. Becuase He picked up the pieces of my life over the course of this time, I can now remember that long time ago, he did the same for me when I was just 15 years old and had realized his heart was in need of mending.

During the weekend, I talked to a few people about how funny it is because it was weird these last few months between God and I. I think Him and I are in a different relationship now. It's evoloved; it's more mature. Through the tough times, I never really felt God left me like how we can imagine Job not feeling God was anywhere near Him in the bible. However, despite my stubborn ways, God kept me close. He answered prayers still and answered me through speaking to me in many situations in my life. I began to hear God's voice in different ways than in the past. I started seeing how He was shaping my world and how He opened doors and closed certain ones in my life for practical reasons. It's been really different for me...but it's not a bad thing...it's just.....different.....

And so learning how to be in existence now with these sudden changes will be a challenge for me. I am praying so hard that God would put the pieces of my life back together and make sense of it all. I have so many questions in my mind. Some are answered but so many still remain unanswered. And yet these are questions I feel I need to pursue the answers for. It's slowly coming together and so my prayer for the new year is that God would shine His truth and His light upon my life stronger than He ever has before. Maybe this is all just a glorious beginning for my life again....maybe he's just setting the stage for newer and greater things. Speak Lord for your servant is listening.....

Fin.

Remember how I said that on the release day of the Wii, I was tossing and turning and felt like God wanted me up but I chose to try to sleep anyways? I had that experience today too. I was trying to sleep in but my mind was dreaming about something really weird and it was draining to think about rather than relaxful. I chose to get out bed because of that and went on the computer. I went to the Future Shop website because I wanted to check something out. You see, I bought a new TV for our living room yesterday and Phil asked me a question about it and I had no idea what the answer was to it so I went on to check the answer out. Anyways, I've been checking Future Shop's website quite frequently lately to look for Wii controllers and so as I was typing in the link of the site, well a bunch of URLs to the site popped up and and I scrolled to one of them and hit the Wii Remote page I visted in the past. It said that they were in stock at the NE Future Shop! I checked for the Nunchucks and they were in stock too! I was freaking out because I didn't know how many they had and the store had been open for an hour already so they might have had as little as one of each and by the time I made it there, they could've been gone! I called several times but no one picked up. Well all I can say is I drove like a maniac trying to get to the store and the store was packed! However, the good news is, the remotes and the nunchucks were in stock and I picked up 3 of each!! Wow, 200 big ones down the drain!! Cheap system; expensive accessories. When I got home, I went back online and it said they weren't in stock in the NE Future Shop anymore lol. This is kind of funny becuase they didn't get any Wiis in and when I went to the Coventry Hills location yesterday, they said the accessories usually ship with the Wiis. BS I tell ya!! So thus, this concludes the hunt for accessories. It's quite fitting since my semester is now over as well and I have no work to do! :) I could've picked up more remotes/nunchucks but I figured I wouldn't be a jerk and sell them online as I wanted the people who have the systems to buy them...hopefully it worked. Sure, I may have made money selling an extra Wii, but I spent a lot of time looking for accessories and things just have a way of balancing out like that. Praise God that the hunt is over! :)

I also got shopping done today. I went to Toys R Us and they have a HUGE weekend sale so go hit up that store if you haven't done so already! Also, I went to Blessings and picked up some things. I also FINALLY hit the T & T by more place and I can tell you I like it A LOT better than the NE location...less crowded and I could actually find parking. I picked up some Inari and it was awesome. I wanted some Dim Sum but didn't want to wait in line as I had ice cream in my basket and didn't want it to melt before I got home lol.

As for my new TV..it's a 40 inch HD LCD Sony. It didn't fit in my car so I I had to get some bungie chords and it was sticking out of my trunk when I brought it home. I managed to bring it inside my home and the TV is still in tack. LOL...no HD yet, but maybe soon. Just have to wait awhile because I think this family has spent enough money over the holidays already...:P

Busy While at Home

Hmmm...I don't know what my fanscination is with Spider-man, but I've been posting lots of pics of him on my blog as of late. It has nothing to do with the movie, but I don't know...I think I'm realizing that he is the best comicbook character because he can relate to so many people. Don't get me wrong, Havok's still my favorite but Spidey is just so universally appealing. And with him, he always gets the short end of the stick....well except for marrying a SUPER MODEL/ACTRESS for a wife!!!! Well, unless she dies...which implies short endage again for Spidey....haha, like the above picture implies!!! :P

I must admit, though I'm not technically in classes right now, I've been really busy. I thought the scrapbooking thing would be easy but it turns out it's just like writing a term paper...but it's more expensive and more time consuming. I think I spent about 2 hours writing my paper and then 5 or 6 hours getting pictures together and cutting them out and cutting out borders and backgrounds and such for the scrapbook. Thought the project was expensive and time consuming, it was actually a fun project to do and it's worth keeping to look back on. I may incorporate it into my porfolio too.

I brought the scrapbook to Joelle's last night and showed off my accomplishment lol. Wow, my first scrapbook was finished and I can see why people like doing this type of thing. Though I wouldn't recommend it as a hobby if you've never tried it because scrapbookers spend thousands of dollars on this type of thing!!!

Speaking of Joelle's, we got to play some 4 player Wii over there! So that's what it feels like to have 4 people play the Wii at once...lol...man, I don't know if I have enough space in my living room to accomidate that! :P

I went to look around for some remotes today and did I have any luck? Nope. I did see about 6 or 7 Wiis at Royal Oak's Wal-Mart if anyone's interested though. :)

Yesterday, I went to get grad photos done in the morning and I was really dumb because I showed up wearing a hoodie thinking I could do grad photos. When I got there I thought, "Why am I not wearing a dress shirt and tie?" LOL...I signed up for a time later on in the day and came back dress appropriately. This was a fun process because I didn't do a grad photo for my Econ degree. This degree, well, I am definitely more proud of so hence why I'm taking the pics! :P I can't believe it: one more semester and then I get to teach!!! :)

One last note for today. I spent about 3 hours working on my resume and its starting to take shape. Man these things take a long time to do. Hope it's ready for tommorrow to get reviewed! And I hope they don't slaughter me either lol. One more day of school and then it's time for holidays! HOO-RA!!!

Liar Liar

Last week--because of the cold snap we experienced in Calgary--many kids were wearing hats like in the picture above. I think it's so cool because the girl in the pic is Molly aka Princess Powerful aka Bruiser from Runaways and she is known for her trendy hats. She wears many hats similar to the pictured above but the character who is the hat always changes. I've been reading Runaways for a few years now so imagine my surprise when students showed up at school with these funky hats. I want one! LOL

So it seems that Spider-Man is going to be back in black soon and you know they're only allowing that in the comics because he's going to wear the suit in Spider-man 3 coming out this summer! Oh baby I love the suit! :)

I drove to where Costco is up by my house and they have Winners, Roots Outlet, Michael's, Home Depot, etc. and it looks nice. I hope the infrastructure will be better for getting in and out of there soon. Today when I drove there, the raods were wet and the sun's beams were glaring into my eyes and I could hardly see while I was driving. Scary!!! I hate when that happens!!

One thing that came to mind today was the topic of lies. For some people, they can be very creative in the process of lying. They'll think of stories beforehand and plan a course of action when people ask them about something. While others are just good at making up lies as they go and before they realize they've done it, they already lie and it's already too late to stop lying! I know what kind of liar I am.....What kind of a liar are you? Hmmmm.....:)

Never Again....

Gross! When I went to sleep, I still was full from the ribs at Montana's! I woke up and had to take a whiz at 5am and had the taste of rib sauce in my mouth and it was dry. When I really woke up, same dry sandy taste in my tounge and around my mouth. When I pooed in the morning, it smelled like TEXAS BOLD BBQ sauce as well. I am still quite full from the 2 lbs. of pork I ate yesterday. I know I've said this before, but NEVER WILL I INDULGE IN RIBS AGAIN!!! .....well, at least not for a little while.... :P I feel like puking.......

Oh How Little Monies I Have!!! :P

I don't know what's with me but I think I'm really starting to lose patience with certain people and certain situations in my life. I think it's really hard because I'm trying not to become this person who isolates himself from everyone and just always doing my own thing but I can't help it. I know deep down, I long for belonging and community but with some people I think it's easier to stay away then to love. And yet God is humbling me and asking me "Kingston, why you gotta be like that?" And then I say, "Well God, why do THEY have to be like that?" So which to bury: us or the impatience? :P God I'm open to Your help but I can't do this alone if I think you want it the way you do......God let me give the love to those who need it the most wherever I am.....

Today was very interesting because my Prof came in to see me teach one last time before she writes my assessment and honestly, I didn't expect her to come. She said she would just drop by unexpectantly and that way was fine with me beucase I could concentrate on teaching and not getting anxious over her visit. Things went GREAT today PTL!!! :) She actually said "out of all the classes I've seen, I haven't seen the spirit of inquiry like I've seen it in your class today." WOW! I'm not all for inquiry but that was quite the thing to say. I don't consider myself inquiry based and yet the whole MT program at U of C is based on that. I think it's all a load......:P

What I don't think is a load of dung is something I watched on 20/20 just now. Well, I was looking for "The Nine" but I guess it isn't on tonight. Anyways, they were talking about some experiment they performed where they set up charity donation stations (like they always do around the mall and at stores during this time of year). One was set up in some conservative rural town in California while another was set up in San Fran. which of course most of you know as being more Liberal. Which place ended up with the most money? Definitely not San Fran. The rural and more conservative place gave more and the trend happens to be true all over America. The places with the most Conservative people (according to Election results), gave approx. 30% more money to non profit organizations than liberals in the USA. The story is true also with nonmonetary giving as 18% more blood was given by conservatives than liberals. Also, these conservative States were also a lot poorer than the others. According to statistics, it was either the poorer working class or the extremely rich who gave the most. The cheapskates of the bunch were the majority middle class. 20/20 was saying how funny it was that the middle class was complaining about not having enough money when all these people were able to give a portion of each of their paycheques to charity who were from the poorer working class. Also in the statistics, people who gave lots of money to church and considered themselves spiritual are not only more likely to give to the church, but they give more money generously to charities not affiliated with church. Hmmm......interesting stuff...well for me anyways!!! :)

Reflections

Hooray! I sold my Nintendo Wii today on Ebay for $25 US more than what I bought mine for. Profits baby!! :) And when I bought my Wii, I got Zelda with it so you can see it as me getting Zelda for free or me actually making a profit of $70-80!!! :)

Well it's the last week of student teaching and it was the last Monday I'll ever be with my class. Like Jon, I've found my passion for teaching too and yet like him, I also question whether I'm starting to place teaching over God. That's been racing through my head as of late and I've come to the conclusion that I'm not because even though I'm loving teaching, I'm always looking forward to the end of the day. I love teaching as a job, but like any job, I just can't wait for it to be finished! So really, school's not taking His place...but I've got school down somewhat. I really am going to miss my kids but I can't wait until this week is over because I want to move on and not look back on being a student teacher---I want to be a REAL teacher! :P I guess it's just my impatience kicking in....always looking forward to the next step in life I think.

One of my favorite students was lingering in the classroom today after the bell rang and I asked him if something was wrong. He replied, "no...it's just....are you sure you HAVE to leave this week Mr. Wong? Why can't you leave next week instead?" This isn't the first time he's kind of acted this way but it was the first time he's really been saddened by it lol. He and I talked for a bit and I proceeded to the door to "walk him out" of the classroom. He started walking to the other end of the school to get his coat at the coat rack and he turned around and looked at me and talked as he walked backwards and by the end of it, it was like the conversation was the last one we'd ever have. It was kind of sad. It's funny in a way because I wasn't going to tell the kids I was leaving until the last day originally but when I told them last week I was leaving soon, some of them were sad haha. "Are you going to miss us Mr. Wong?" another one of my favorites asked me today. And to tell you the truth...I will most definitely will. I should go and visit them over the course of the Winter semester haha. I actually like most/all of my students a lot and honestly, I think I will NEVER forget this group of students.

As I think about it all....where I was and where I am now, I can't help but to thank God for His provisions in my life. I was never the dumb kid in school...I did well in most of my subjects...and when things looked bleak in terms of getting high enough marks to get into Education, He got me in and I'll NEVER forget that. He helped me realize that I can live out a life of passion through a relationship with Him and through the work He's given me to do. Because of Him, I've known love and know how to love. And because of Him, I get to finish off with TWO degrees baby!!! To God be all the glory both now and forevermore.....it's all about You...may this story you've written through the unfolding adventures of my life give Your namesake all the praise it's due....

Finally......REST!!!

Well, at least a small one. :) I did nothing today but relax and it felt weird...I felt almost useless lol. Part of the reason for the rest is because of my eye infection. I need to get lots of rest and am wishing I will be well for school on Monday. I think Sarah gave me pink even though it's scientifically impossible because we didn't see each other for over a week lol.

I've got 1 more week of practicum and then 1 more week to work on my education resume and scrapbooking assignment to explain what the therories of teacher are that I've developed. After that, it's Christmas shopping time haha. I really can't wait.

What I did spend a lot of time doing today was look at Future Shop's website and did some TV research. We're going to be buying a new one soon so hopefully I can get some info on all that from them and from you guys who have all bought a new TV. Haha....I'm excited to get a new TV to go alone with my Wii. Mother's buying the television for us for Christmas...well, she's paying for MOST of it haha! :)

I remember when I was young, I used to go through my ONE comic box full of my old comics every once in awhile. Well, it's been so long since I've done that and yet I did that today. That's where I got the image of Spidey and MJ from that you see above. I couldn't find it online anywhere so I took a pic of it and there it is! It's a painting done by Gabriele Dell'Otto. He's amazing! Too bad it takes him 3-4 months to paint one full issue of a comic!!! Crazy eh?

So how am I feeling as of late? Content. I think there are a lot of uncertainties right now for me but at least my heart is calm. There's been a storm raging for months, but I've noticed that Jesus is continuously speaking into that.....but still, I know I'm not the same person I use to be. I see a lot of things differently. Relationships. God. Ministries. Church. Teaching. The paragdigm of it all has really shifted and my understanding of it all has changed so much. I'm starting to believe that God has let this shift happen in me for a reason and that maybe God doesn't want me to go back to the way I was but I'm suppose to use what I've learnt and let myself continue to be this way. The old me had some pros and cons and the newer me has different pros and different cons. Well, I'm actually confused as to why I'm writing this all because as I write this, I am asking myself, "why are you writing this? You just started this paragraph saying you were content!!!" I AM content and I AM calm right now...but still...I still am analyzing and trying to take it all in and yet make sense of it all. :)

Words of Wisdom

"Don't ask yourself what the world needs. Ask yourself what makes you feel alive, and go do that, becuase what the world needs is people who have come to life." --Gil Bailie

"Never make a principle out of your experience; let God be as original with other people as He is with you."--Oswald Chambers

"Why am I dying to live if I'm just living to die?" --Jonny Lang

Jonny Lang Give Me Up Again

Hmmm so I picked up his CD with this song and I love it. Well, I've only listened to 5 songs so far...but it's good 'cause I've never picked up a Blues CD. Expand a little horizons there eh? :P I'm going to pick up his Gospel album at HMV hopefully this weekend!

Man I'm so tired right now...gotta play some Wii before I watch "The Nine" though. Lessons are going smoothly so far but Parent/Teacher Interviews are tommorrow and they go from 5-8pm. ARG!!! :P Way to cut into my personal life but better get used to them haha.

I heard a Jars of Clay song while a promotion was going on for "House" on Fox. It made me think, "geez, I haven't listened to that CD in a few weeks!" I popped the CD back in and now I remember why I love it haha! www.christianitytoday.com listed it as the best Christian CD of the year and I think I'd have to mostly agree because the songs are just brilliant! Actually, they listed Jonny Lang's new CD at number 4 so it better be good when I go buy it!!! :P

6 more teaching days of practicum left! Whoo hoo! (Notice how this whole blog just talked about music, then teaching, then music, then teaching.....? Man, it's like a circle story!!! :P)

"My Cat's Name is Mittens"

Everyone thinks Ralph Wiggum is super cool and cute and whatever but have you ever wondered if such a kid were to actually exist, would we think this kid to be cool? Well there's this one kid who is so like Ralph Wiggum in my class and he's absolutely annoying lol. I want to strangle this kid....seriously. Today he farted and I heard it but no one else said anything. He ducked down and shifted his eyes left and right haha and it was so obvious it was him--he really did a bad job of hiding it...lol.

I'm really digging music by Jonny Lang right now...I think I'm going to pick up some of his stuff soon..... :) He's got some nice guitar skills and he's kind of a gospel/blues kind a guy. He released 3 mainstream CDs first but convereted by the time his fourth CD hit. Anyways, good stuff!!! :)

So I wanted to do some lesson planning but haven't done so yet. The reason is because I'm now officially no longer "Wii-less." We're playing it right now haha. Still need to get 3 more Wii-motes though....I heard they are coming in on Friday? I want to play but maybe I should be be responsible....Should I call in sick or not call in sick tommorrow?......hmmmm....lol..... :)

PS I got the Beta version of Blogger and it's better and faster!

Closure Part II

I think I'm going crazy. I really am bad at overthinking things and over-analyzing things. It's easier just to resolve things and talk things out with people but sometimes, it's beyond our control. However, when we can resolve things with people but choose not to, I have to wonder why? Do we like holding onto our confusions and thus second guessing everything? It makes the self going crazy always wondering.....yet we choose to be that way. Weird isn't it? :P

And that's why I find closure with people is such a big deal. I know I've talked about this before, but I've learnt more about this phenomenon lately. When there are problems, we should talk it over. However, closure is a multiple step process. Just because you've talked things over with someone, it's not usually enough if it's only been done once. People are insecure and need constant reassurance. You can try to bridge gaps with people and at the end of a healing session with someone, you think things are alright again, but really, they're not. And then there's awkwardness again. "Oh dang, I thought we talked about that already!" Haha...see where I'm going with this?

Well, somethings been driving me crazy as of late. I told my buddies at Men's Group about such a situation and that I was going to resolve something with someone and that it was going to happen after the Men's Meeting. My mind dwelled on it all night. I am happy to report that things went well and for once in a long time with this friend, I feel at peace with it all.

I wanted to have closure on another situation today but the person only had 5 minutes to talk so now I have to wait for this person to call me back later tonight. Talk about nerve-wrecking. I hope this situation ends well. :) May it lead to closure.

I think closure is so important--how can we just let things dwindle? Stop the insanity!!! I need a lot more closure with more people and situations but I'll take what I can get for now. If things work out tonight, then I guess that will be two less things to worry about and my mind can be more at peace! :P

Beta

Has anyone made the switch to the new blogger in beta yet? Just wondering if anyone has and if it's good because it says that if you make the switch, you can't go back to the old version. Anyone? :)

So things have been busy with me at school and I got to create my very first unit test yesterday! Boy, it took me forever and coming up with good questions for kids is actaully a very time consuming task. You have to make sure your grammar is correct and you have to make sure your sentences aren't too wordy. It's quite fun, yet it really tests your patience at the same time lol!

I'm really tired and am just hoping I can survive this last month of school. 2.5 more weeks of practicum and then 1 week of classes at school. I have to get my resume ready and get my final project ready too within this time frame. I thought I was going to do a paper for my last project, but it turns out my prof wants me to create a scrapbook lol. That's the MT program for you; we've been reduced to artsy fartsy craft making! :P

Remember how I was complaining last year about my horrible prof at U of C? LOL...I told everyone I wasn't going to use her for a reference and that I didn't like her and how stupid she was and all. However, I just finished emailing her asking if she would write me a reference letter for my application to The CBE. Oh how things can change so quickly lol. Looks like I'd be eatin' my words. :P LOL

Anyways, not much else new with me. Just trying to get through the rest of the semester! I just got some confusing news from this article concerning the Wii: Wii DVD Next Fall? So now that you've read it, should I wait 'til next year or buy it on Sunday? :P

Differences

You ever get that feeling where you are so tired you seem to become a bit dillusional? :P You can't think straight and when you try to focus your eyes, they hurt? Yeah, I have that right now. :P Rubbing doesn't help.....:P

I saw it again today. You know, female friends saying things behind each other's backs. It was driving me nuts last week but today, I just kind of laughed and told my coworkers, "oh girls....why'd you gotta be like that?" And you meet some girls who will admit to being catty, but they can't stop and don't know why. Yet you meet other girls who totally deny it and you have to wonder, which is worse: the girl who admits she's got cattiness in her but can't stop or the one who can't even own up to it? :P

I think it's funny because there's a teacher whom my students see me with at times because she's in the class next door. My students want us to hook up and they tease me all the time. I think the teacher actually does have the hots for me and we're team teaching L.A. together for our two grade 6 classes lol. It kind of seems weird though because she's giving me lots of attention. During a Teacher's social gathering, she got me to polka dance with her and was so casual about asking me to dance with her. She also told me that when Fridays come along, she's a lot more lonely becuase us student teachers aren't around but really, I'm the only one she talks to of us 7 lol. Am I just imagining it or what? :P

I think she doesn't have a clue as to who I really am though. You know, she sees half of me. She sees the teacher; she sees the guy who likes to laugh. Yet she doesn't know the other side. The side of me that is in love with Christ. The side of me that can't stand being apart from Him. And yet that just shows me that Christ is the half that makes the other half work. I can't be anything without Him.

So even though a part of me feels empty without "a someone" in my life, the beauty of it all is He completes me in my emptiness. It hurts, but God is meeting me in it all...how ironic. I've found from the past that when you're in a relationship, the companionship of a woman is a great compliment with the relationship with God but it can often take away from the intense feelings for God. It's been a long time since I've let God be THE ONLY ONE to fill me up completely. When things were over and I had to let go of my previous relationship, I told myself I didn't want Him to be the only one to fill me up anymore and that I wanted someone else to be there to be a part of the equation. Fate would have it that for whatever reason, I'm still not in a relationship right now but for once in a long time, I'm becoming okay with that again. Hopefully it'll be healthy for me though. I don't want to grow tired of waiting and build walls so high that I'm too far from letting anyone into my life (because I know how hard those walls were to break the first time). I'll try hard not to let insecurities get the better of me. I'll try hard to be still and know God and fall more in love with Him again. God, I think I'm falling in love with You again.....I know, it's about time and I've had a lot to learn over these past few months. Thanks for bringing me back.....

Blue Horizons

"Horizon" by 38th Parallel

Another day burns away into darkness
Another blink of the eye of time
I am straining through the blackness
Ever searching for a sign

[Prechorus]
The days grow long and the days grow dark
And the days grow ever colder
The trust that I started with fades as I get older
Though the road is hard
It seems to me there is no way around this
From all you've done for me
I know you'll never break your promise

[Chorus]
So here at the end of this day
Where the world is shaded in gray
I will look to the blue horizons and watch for you to come
When my hope is tattered and torn
When my faith is weathered and worn
I'll look to the blue horizons

I am still walking, evading the shadows
I am still running that narrow line
I'll go wherever you would have me

Man, it's funny because this song is like 3 or 4 years old, but I only heard it recently on Shine. I can't say that I've heard it anytime before a few weeks ago...so that's weird that they would play an old song...especially an old song that isn't already overplayed. :P Anyways, this song is the one that is currently going through Itunes nonstop right now haha! :)

I really wish I had more time to do some personal reading. I still haven't gotten very far in "Searching for God Knows What," but I read the 4th chapter from the book today and I really want to finish this book lol. I also reread a chapter from "Wild at Heart" for tommorrow's Alley Fellowship meeting and I think this was the climax of the entire book! I really enjoyed this chapter because it really spoke to me about things I forgot about lol. I know we'll have some excellent discussion time tommorrow lol. :P

I just found out a friend of mine from Education got dumped by her boyfriend over the weekend. She was all sad and not talking during lunchtime in the staffroom and that was really discouraging for me to see her like that. She said that her boyfriend had thought things were going well at first but he gets scared off when things go to well. Talk about commitment issues!!! :P Well, I couldn't bash the guy because guys my age are usually like that and I have to say I can relate.

I had a talk with another friend from Education today about how her and I came from broken families and the fact that everyone who came from families with parents still together had an easier time going out with people and enjoying themselves while a lot of us who have parents that got divorced find it difficult letting people get too close to them. I think we're the type of people who have been affected really horribly by our parents and thus our faith in relationships just doesn't exist. Seriously, maybe that's my problem. Maybe I like finding reasons to end relationships before things get too up close and personal. Who knows. Maybe that's why a part of me even though wanting the ideal life with marriage and all doesn't mind the safety of singleness. It's better to have the latter than to end up with the resulting crippleness I saw everyone in my family experience. :P Is there a Blue Horizon for me there?

Things are getting busy again in my classroom. It's driving me nuts how my teacher can be so last minute with details lol. On one hand, it teaches me flexibility so I love it but on the other, he can really put me on the spot! I will be taking over the class in a week or so full-time for about two weeks so I guess I get a chance to see what I'm made of. I've lost momentum in teaching my class because I missed yesterday due to sickness. Getting back in sync with my students takes a lot more energy than I initially thought. I pray God gives me energy because for some reason, I'm just tired again. Man, I gotta find a way to keep my energy levels up because the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak!!!

I think teaching is just a rollercoaster of emotions. Sometimes you feel like you can do it; sometimes you just regress and want to crawl into a corner and hide. Sometimes you have the drive and energy to make it through the week; sometimes you have weeks where you just want to give up and cry. I think if anyone is mentally unstable, teaching is not for you. Good thing I'm sane to the membrane!! :P

Day of Firsts

Today was the first day that I have called in sick and thus not showing up for practicum in the two years of my student teaching career. I would like to say that I faked the whole thing and played hookie, but I didn't. I woke up with the worst stomache ache I've had in a long time and it looks like my body couldn't handle the pasta I had last night. It was painful and to have gone to school wouldn've been better. I kept waking up throughout the morning wondering what my class was doing lol. My stoache feels a lot better as I took some medicine and had some rest, but looks like pasta is out of the question for me for a while.

Strangely enough, there wasn't any food to eat for lunch and since I was feeling a bit better, I went out and got some Marie Brown's chicken strips with potato wedges and potato salad for lunch. It was my first time eating there and I remember a friend telling me that the food was decent there. Well it was pretty good but quite expesnive. They gave tonnes of wedges and very little chicken strips. I'm quite stuffed though haha. I don't know what I was thinking though...feeding my stomache junk food when it was already in a state of unease. :P

So what have I done today? Nothing but relax and recover. Hopefully my Partner Teacher doesn't hate me too much for skipping out on the day. :P

Yeah Right!

I think it's such a lie when people say they don't care what others think of them. One of the deepest longings in people's hearts is to be accepted and to be acknowledged. Donald Miller writes in "Searching for God Knows What", "It seemed that every human being had this need for something outside himself to tell him who he was...It explained why I wanted to be seen as smart, why religious people wanted so desperately to be right, why Shirley MacLaine wanted to be God, and just about everything else a human did." I can testify to that. That's why I think it's bogus when people say otherwise. :P

Hmmm...Alicia introduced Jon and I to Wonderfalls today and I have to say, I'm semi-interested in finishing watching the other 11 episodes haha. Maybe we should meet up and finish watching the show together. :P

Man, I have 4 new CDs open from this week and what I really hate about opening so many CDs all at once is that I can't give all my attention to any particular disk. From past experience, I always end up liking a CD more than another and thus give all my attention to that one. The rest end up collecting dust becuase I didn't give them a fair chance. Well, I've been listening to all 4 these last few days so hopefully I can avoid the trend I've been setting with previous CDs haha.

I wasn't going to open my Skillet CD but because Geo said it was good, I was more open to the idea of listening to it. Also, Christine said she was going to pick up the CD so that put me over the edge and I opened it. Glad I did. Thumbs up! :) I'm in the middle of listening to it right now! :)

As for the Newsboys, I'm glad you guys are back to your rockin' roots. No more contempoary worship albums for awhile please...although the last one was good, it's just not what the Newsboys are known for. :P

Oh and I'm glad I picked up this Phil Joel album. This CD is to refocus us back on spending more time with God. Love it.

FOF, I can't stop listening to all the tracks on the EP! AHHHH! One of my fav bands without a doubt!

So many CDs and I've noticed that I have way too many CDs, Toys, Comics and books. Any suggestions on what to do with all this stuff? Hmmm...should I sell my stuff? I don't want to get ripped off. Maybe I should just stop buying new stuff? Or maybe I should just get a bigger house! :P Hopefully I'll marry someone who doesn't mind all my junk. :)

FOF

Hurrahhh, my new Future of Forestry EP CD came in today. "Gosh darn it"--in the words of Hank Hill--I'm glad this CD is finally here haha! I loved Something Like Silas and am looking forward to their new CD sometime in '07. For now, this EP will have to do! The lead singer/guitarist is Chinese and the drummer is Korean. One thing that's a negatory on them is some pics of the lead singer with facial hair. Sorry, but asian peeps should lay low on the facial hair; it just doesn't work very well for most of them! :P

I can't wait 'til tommorrow becuase it means I can go to CP and pick up some new CDs! I'm hoping to pick up the new Newsboys (with new guitarist Paul Coleman), and perhaps Jeremy Camp and the latest solo album by Phil Joel (bassist of Newsboys). CP is suppose to be a good place but I can't help but feel like I'm sinning there as I splurge uncontrollably there lol.

Man, I'm getting excited....4 more weeks to go for practicum, soon the Wii is coming out, and Christmas is definitely on the way too! :P Here are some games I'm looking forward to for the Wii: Marvel Ultimate Alliance, Trauma Center: Second Opinion (a simulation game where you get to be the doctor and perform surgeries!), Rayman Raving Rabbids (lots of mini games!), Madden NFL '07 (you get to move your Wii-mote, when hiking a ball to the QB and you get to perform a motion to perform a throw), and Elebits (which I have no idea what it's about...but it looks fun because you get to walk around a kitchen and zap things!).

Man oh man, so many things I want for Christmas WAHAHAH! :) I want it all! And what Kingston wants, Kingston will get!!!! :)

Lost Again

Man, is it November already?!?! :P Four More Weeks of Practicum after tommorrow!!! :) I can't wait 'til it's all over but once again, it's bittersweet. I want to complete being a student teacher and become a full-fledge one.

It's funny because I was thinking about how I feel like I've lost a lot of my passion for ministry in the church. However, my passion for teaching has increased by an exponential amount. Last year, I wasn't sure if this is where I wanted to be, but now I am sure, teaching for me is where it's at. It's weird how teaching has become exciting where as ministries now I'm certain uncertain about. Maybe reaching kids through teaching is my new ministry. :P

Man, I just watched Lost and all I can say is !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm also hooked on a new TV show right now called "The Nine." It follows Lost on Wednesday nights. I missed the first 4 episodes but because I'm teaching less this week, I had a chance to catch up on the show. It's pretty good and I think that is officially "my new show" for this season haha. Speaking of which, it's on right now so talk to you later peeps! :) Payce!

Happy Halloween Peeps! :P

Halloween was really fun at Marion Carson and I don't know if it's like this at other schools, but today was a pretty easy going day. We played another version of Quiddich in Phys. Ed. and it took 20 minutes to explain! The kids only had 10 minutes to play and it was chaos...well, controlled chaos haha. I think we will be playing Quiddich again soon because it took so long to explain it. It would definitely be worth it play it again...maybe tommorrow. That means we'd push the Volleyball unit off for a few days! :)

The teachers were all dressed up and so were most of the kids. I think the most popular costume this year is the pirate! I wore my costume lol but it didn't match anyone else's because they were all more like Pirates from the Caribbian type costumes! :)

A few of the classes had so much junk food in them...I was very envious because my students didn't bring much. One student hooked us up with Timmy's doughnuts though haha. I was so full becuase my bro packed me tons of pasta but when the student offered me a doughnut, I took one and ate it because I didn't want to hurt his feelings! :P I'm still actually really full and I haven't eaten dinner yet which is weird beause I usually would've eaten dinner by an hour ago!

I'm still waiting for trick or treaters....lol...we have candy but not much. We only got like 4 kids last year and maybe 8 the year before haha. Maybe I should go turn my porch light on? :P

Oh and one last thing: I think I'm a nice teacher because the only thing I assigned for homework for today was to have a safe time during Trick or Treating lol. Tommorrow though, we get down to business! :P

Marvel Ultimate Alliance Details

Okay, they've been teasing for awhile, but here is the list of characters in Marvel Ultimate Alliance according to www.action-figure.com. Too bad for us future PS3 and Wii owners, we're going to have to wait another month for this game to come into our hands. For everyone else, you can pick up your copy of the game starting next week in Canada! :)

Playable Characters
Blade, Captain America, U.S. Agent, Deadpool, Dr. Strange, Elektra, Ghost Rider, Vengeance, Phantom Rider, Human Torch, Iceman, Invisible Woman, Iron Man, War Machine, Luke Cage, Ms. Marvel, Sharon Ventura, Mr. Fantastic, Spider-Man, Scarlet Spider, Spider-Woman, Arachne, Spider-Girl, Storm, The Thing, Thor, Beta Ray Bill, Wolverine

Unlockable Characters
Black Panther, Daredevil, Nick Fury, Silver Surfer

PSP Exclusives
Black Widow, Captain Marvel, Hawkeye, Ronin

Next-Gen Exclusives
Colossus, Moon Knight, Khonshu

Non Player Characters
Balder, Black Bolt, Black Widow, Corsair, Clea, Crystal, Cyclops, Dum Dum Dugan, Emma Frost, Edwin Jarvis, Gambit, Gorgon, Hank Pym, Heimdall, Hermod, Jean Grey, Karnak, Lilandra, Lockjaw, Namor, Namorita, Nightcrawler, Odin, Professor Xavier, Sif, Triton, Tyr, Uatu the Watcher, Valkyrie, Vision, Volla, Wong, Wyatt Wingfoot

Bad Guys
Abomination, Arcade, Attuma, Baron Mordo, Blackheart, Bullseye, Crimson Dynamo, Dark Phoenix, Deathbird, Dragon Man, Doctor Doom, Dormammu, Empress S'ybll, Enchantress, Executioner, Fin Fang Foom, Galactus, Gladiator, Grey Gargoyle, The Kraken, Kurse, Loki, Mandarin, Mysterio, Mephisto, M.O.D.O.K., Onslaught, Radioactive Man, Rhino, Scorpion, Shocker, Skrull Queen, Super-Skrull, Tiger Shark, Titannus, Ulik, Ultimo, Ultron, Winter Soldier, The Wrecking Crew, Ymir

Dang, I'm really sad about not being able to use the chracters exclusively on PSP. I'd take these chracters over the ones offered for the Wii any day. No offense to the Colossus fans out there! :P

Evil

Well a lot of people have noticed that I'm looking for a costume to wear for Halloween at Marion Carson. One person started talking to me about how evil Halloween is and seriously, I was thinking, "shut the heck up!!!" Okay, I had to clean it up a bit....but it was along those lines....:P Seriously, I don't mind Christians, but Christian Bigots, well, that's another thing! :P Must be one of those "Chinese Conservative Christian" type things aka 3C or even...C^3....:P

I'm about to start another book by Donald Miller entitled, "Searching for God Knows What" and when I was reading the back, it was talking about how if we are attracted to Christ but Christians are turning us off, we should read this book...so maybe God wants to speak to me through this bad boy....let's hope God can speak some more life into me--I need it! :P




Man, I love this new Skillet song entitled "Rebirthing." I heard it on Saturday on Red Letter Rock and actaully, I heard it when testing the CD out at CP the day before that even. I heard it on Shine for the first time yesterday morning and it was a nice song to wake up to haha...well, it was good in the sense that I couldn't get back to sleep becuase it was so heavy haha. The above, is the video of the song so check it out if you like good tunes! :) The band even has a female drummer which is kind of cool because those hardly exist haha. The other chick that sings/play guitar/keyboards is the wife of the lead singer.

I also have rediscovered the first album by Falling Up. "Jacksonfive" is a hot track haha. I love when I fall in love with old CDs.... :P

*** UPDATE ***

One last thing before I close this entry...the trailer for season 6 of 24 has been released and you can view it at: http://www.24trailer.com/ Man, I can't wait 'til Jan. 14, 2007!!!!

6 Things I Know About You....

Instructions: Write a journal entry for this meme with six random facts about yourself.
Then, pick six of your friends list and tag them - no tag backs.
These rules should be included in your entry. Like Alicia, I'll tag whoever wants it...:P

One: This year was the first year I have ever seen a shooting star. Maybe I saw one as a kid, but I really don't remember doing so. During Summer Camp, I was lying under the stars and saw a small one and I was so amazed because I don't remember ever seeing one. Just last week at Outdoor School, I saw the biggest one EVER lol....and it was so big all the kids who were with me on the hill saw it too and it was the perfect moment for all of us. We were in such awe! :)

Two: People think that just becuase I collect toys, I'll collect any toy. If's it's not related to something I like (eg. Marvel, Simpsons, Street Fighter, DC, TMNT, Transformers, etc.). I'm really picky about these things....and they not only have to be related to the these things I listed above, they HAVE to be action figures. Just becuase I like X-Men, doesn't mean I like collecting X-Men junk!!! :P

Three: I enjoy spending money if I know that what my money is going to has something of lasting value. I don't mind spening for the sake of an experience, but I'm more hesitant about it. I'm starting to be more willing to spend money for vacations though...:)

Four: I hope to be able to visit my child I've sponsered through World Vision one day. He's in Chilie; his name is Matias; He's 3 years old. :)

Five: I can't stand people who overstep their boundaries. Yes, you're my friend and yes, you have a say and are entitled to speak but don't think that gives you to interfere with things in my life. You have your own; deal with that! :P

Six: I'm actually more of a loner even though I like being in the mist of Social Gatherings. Though I need my time with friends, I enjoy being with myself and listening to music, reading, watching TV or just relaxing. However, when I need my friends, boy do I NEED THEM!! :) I think a fix of friends is quite healthy when it comes to the weekends but during weekdays, I'm all biz-nazz!!! :)

When Things Show Up

So I thought I lost my Switchfoot "Nothing is Sound" CD but I finally found it after half a year of looking for it. It was in my Veggie Tales CD case. :P Now to find my United "United We Stand" CD because it turns out when something shows up, something else is lost to take its place. I hope that CD shows up soon because it's a good one! :P

Today I went to watch Mrs. Wilson's (Cayla Wilson's mom), teach her grade 1s. Man, I've made a decision: I don't miss Div. 1 kids at all. When I teach, I hope to have a grade 4, 5 or 6 class! The younger ones are cute and all, but I just can't stand how they tattle, how they can't spell, how they can't read, etc., etc. haha!! I loved Div. 1 last year but once I've tasted Div. 2, I think there's no going back for me! :P Haha...we'll see. I'm all talk! :P

I didn't do any lesson planning this week and that's great. It gave me a chance to do some leisurely reading and currently, I'm almost done "To Own a Dragon." Donald Miller has become my favorite writer so I hope to pick up the rest of his books soon. I know, who'd a thought, ME?!?! Having a favorite author? Get the heck out of here! I owe the rediscovery of leisurley reading to my field prof. from my 1st year. I despised the old battle axe but that's one thing she truly gave back to me which I'm thankful for! :P Jon's right, it's about time the U of C gave something to me! :P

I'm with The Captain

Hey gang, I'm super tired; I got to get some sleep! Also, my bro is waiting for the comp so I'll keep it brief! :P

I'm back from Outdoor School and I'm tired. The kids are funny becuase a lot of them were homesick and were crying to go back home and even though I tried to reassure them and comfort them, boy, was I homesick lol! I'm glad I'm home! I need sleep as I haven't had a decent night's rest all week so looking forward to that! :)
Hope those kids settled in and that there won't be anymore crying episodes from them tonight! :P

I'm dumb. I always forget to: a) bring my own toilet paper, b) bring snacks, c) buy a flashlight and bring it to camp and d) didn't bring any winter gloves or boots to camp (because I don't have any!) Wow!!! Was it cold on the first day or what? Good thing I brought wool socks and wore two layers of pants (sweats and my PJs)!!!

I added a new display picture of my blog and it looks like Civil War is going to end up having Captain America's band of heroes kick the crap out of Iron Man's. The picture is from a January issue of Black Panther where he and his wifey Storm choose to side with Cap. The cover is nice because it's drawn by Micahel Turner: creator of Witchblade! Man, if Storm, Panther, Namor, Punisher, Spider-Man and Invisible Woman (who betrays her marriage to Mr. Fantastic), to join Cap's side, is there any indication that Iron Man can win this war? :P Go Cap, Go!!!!

That's all for tonight folks! Goodnight!!!! :)

PS Does anyone know the name of the Skanky Orange Cat Chick in the skimpy bikini in the display pic?

How Sweet It Was...

I've just realized, gloves are really hard to come by. :P I had lost my winter gloves on the bus for the second time last year and I tried finding them again but this time, I had no luck in retrieving them back! :( So this led me to go to Market Mall and every store I went to, I couldn't decide on the pair I wanted. Most of the good stuff was going at $60 a pair!!! :( I decided to try Sports Mart up in Crowfoot but the gloves were the same price! Oh yeah, I forgot to explain, the reason I want new gloves is becuase I'm going to Outdoor School and I don't want my fingers to freeze. My kids were outside for gym today and my fingers hurt like heck!!! I guess more pain to come for me at Outdoor School! :P

So today was so busy in class. I didn't even get to teach the two lessons I had prepared becuase we were trying to get so much done before Outdoor School. Oh well, looks like it was a relaxful day for me today but I guess it wasn't in a way becuase I had the stress of worrying about teaching.....regardless if I taught or not, there was still some worry! :P

I still haven't packed yet for outdoor school but I guess I'm only going for 1 night and 2 days so no worries right? Packing will take no time at all :P

I've been complaining to a certain few people over the weekend that I feel like the Sweetness of Life is gone in my life. I don't know....it's not that I've lost the will to live lol. It's just that the things in life isn't as "tasty" (as Jon Chu would say). For whatever reason that is, I'm hoping it'll pick up again. I spent a long time talking to God about it on Saturday Night before sleeping and my heart was quite heavy. My talks with this one person really gave me insight though and I think even her just providing an ear for me was enough to put my heart at ease. Actually, talking to God about it was a big deal too...especially after talking to the boys at Alley Fellowship about being honest with Him. It was a combination of so many things. :P Despite all that, there's still a lot to look forward to I know. My mind knows and my heart is starting to believe again. I can live life and embrace it like honey again....maybe there is something for me to look forward to lol....:)

One last note for today. One of my closest friends at Marion Carson's partner teacher is this chick: Mrs. Wilson. I saw a pic in her room today and it was a pic of her daughter...and then I blurt out: "I didn't know you are Cayla Wilson's mom!?!?" LOL..small world. She started talking to me about Lyndsey Hubble, Laura Henwood and Lindsay Riegel lol. I can totally see the resemblance now. I find it funny because we were at Applebee's yesterday and I told Karen: "Cayla Wilson works here!" LOL..and then I talked about her again today. Weirdness! :P

Wow Sunday Post!

It's been awhile since I've posted on a Sunday hasn't it? Check my blogs in the past archives if you don't believe me....:P

It's been an interesting day for me. First of all, I found out that they play Veggie Tales, 3-2-1 Penguins and the animated Larry Boy on NBC on Saturday Mornings! Sweetness! Who needs to purchase these videos at CP when we can just record them and play them at church? I've tried downloading them but the quality is decreased and the kids noticed I pirated them lol. Also, the downloaded versions freeze up. I told my leaders I was planning on buying the downloaded Veggie Tales sometime after DVBS but I didn't do that. LOL...why should I go overbudget because of these videos? Let another ministry handle it! :P

Speaking of videos, I bought the DVD of the 3rd Angel Wars Episode for church but before giving it away, I was planning on watching it first. Today was that day and it was pretty good! I know some of the kids are dying to watch it because episode 2 left off with a "to be continued.." so this third episode is finally avaliable after months of wondering what happens to Ariannah! :P

I don't know what's with the tendency for me to get things done but with lesson planning, I always want to think of a lesson plan and get it done at the first sitting. This doesn't usually happen and it frustrates me because I always want to "work now, play later." Well today, I was going to do lesson planning because yesterday, I sat and read up on some of the ones made up by Edmonton Public Schools with no productivity on how to enhance these plans and make them my own with my own ideas. Well, I didn't get anything done today in terms of lessons. However, I did crack open the Program of Studies and now I have a vision of where to go next with the Sky Science Unit. We're wrapping up Constellations before heading out to Outdoor School on Monday so I was wondering what to do next. Actaully wait, I'll be honest. I was STRESSING haha. So looks like the natural thing to do is move from a group of stars and talk about the biggest star in our solar System: The Sun. Most people don't know this but even though The Sun is the largest star in our Solar System, it's actually only an average star considering the size of the stars in our galaxy and beyond! :P So with Science mapped out in my mind, I just need a plan for Math. I have no idea what to do for this Unit and I'm hoping my partner teacher will give me some guidance....:P

I also got to watch the hockey games but because The Flames were making a comeback in the 2nd period, I decided not to watch any further because I was getting aggrivated. I still followed along online though lol...that is, until the Oilers game came on. That was also a nerve wrecking game....:) I heart my Oilers....:)

It's been cool talking to Alicia on MSN so much and it's funny because even though she's in TO, I still feel like she's in Calgary almost. Well, it'll be official soon so I can't wait.

Speaking of Alicia, she told me that Bubblemania was closed by health inspectors. It wasn't only that restaraunt, but apparently 47 other ones as well. Dang, I'm glad I don't eat at Bubblemania anymore lol. However, I've eaten at a few of these other ones closed down and that is bothering me. I'm sticking with Calgary Court! :P For a list of the restaurants closed for failing health inspections, click the following link:48 Restaraunts Closed by Health Inspectors Haha...why are so many of these dirty restaurants Viet places? :P

Jesus Camp

Hello gang,

How is everyone doing? It's been a busy week but it went by very fast. I've been sick all week...hence the lack in blogging! :P It was funny because at Alley Fellowship last night, everyone was sick except Geo lol. Hope you made it out without our germs affecting you! :P

So I went to the Ebert & Roeper website to see what they've been rating movies lately and I stumbled upon a movie they just rated called "Jesus Camp." It's a documentary which shows kids who go to summer camps and basically want to be the next Billy Graham! Here's a link to the trailer for those who haven't seen it:

JESUS CAMP TRAILER

So what do you think? I'm a Christian, but I really don't know what to think about this......hmmmm....:P

3 Weeks Down, 8 More to Go!! :P

Today I woke up at 4:45am (that's one minute off of Crystal's time...maybe she was awake too! :P). Anyways, I woke up and my throat was dry and I was panicking 'cause everyone at Marion Carson is sick be it student or teacher haha. Jerks...I don't want to be fighting a germ they gave me over what was suppose to be a relaxing long weekend! :( When I woke up, I decided to go take a whiz and then I headed downstairs to grab my water bottle to moisten up my dry throat. Since I was down there, I decided to check my zoo lol. I hope someone can make a donation to my zoo becuase my Snowy Owl is ever so lonely! :(

Today I drove down Crowchild and looked over at Brentwood and there were tons of parking spaces so I decided to give it a try and even by 8:30am, there were still more than a handful of stalls left! I was going to walk to school but decided to catch the 73 when it drove past me and I thought it'd take me to school instantly but it actually took me about 5 minutes more than it did before because the route has changed to accomidate the new Children's Hospital. It's nice from the outside! :)

Well Thanksgiving Feast today. I'm excited like heck! Hooray, the long weekend is upon us! :)

I love Bebo

I've noticed that on my Ipod, I have a lot of songs by Bebo Norman and I think I should pick up his new CD at CP sometime soon. I just love the sound of his voice. It's so...how do you describe it? I have no words for it?!? And no, don't comment on this blog entry with some smart-mouth answer like "sexy" 'cause that's not what I'm illuding too! :P

So the lesson went pretty well today considering the chaos. LOL...my partner teacher and my prof gave me some good feedback. So 1 lesson down, 2 more to go in terms of evaluations from my prof! :P

It's been a rollercoaster for me. I swear this Sky Science Unit has given me a headache on more than one ocasion but I have the next few lessons planned out (in my head at least), and I should be good to go for two weeks. That means I'm covered 'til the end of Outdoor School! I should still plan some more though lol. I tried writing my lessons I have in my head down today, but I only got one lesson written down...haha...procrastination!!! :P

One last note, I'm teaching Phys. Ed. now too. I'm teaching the unit on Soccer and tommorrow is my first lesson in it. I'm going to teach the kids about proper dribbling technique. A lof of my kids already are involved in soccer and I am teaching them about technique? Do you find this ironic? I certainly do....:P

Adjusted to Right

The one good thing about the new Itunes I have is that it converts all the audio files on my computer to the same volume level. I hated the fact that some tracks were very loud but when say a crappy old version of a great worship song starts playing, it's so quiet. The unbalance has driven me insane but I guess that problem is solved now thanks to Itunes! :P

Oh man, tommorrow is the day of my evaluation so let's hope that I can survive this first of 3 from my field advisor.

Speaking of which, I'm having such troubles with planning this Sky Science Unit. I have the Edmonton Public stuff and I know I was saying it was such a great resource, but it really isn't. Now I know what Jacklyn was talking about when she bashed this resource. I loved it for the younger kids and modifying the lessons were easy, but for the grade 6s, the resource really sucks haha. Can anyone help me with some Sky Science ideas?!?! DAHHHHH!!!!!!

I Had That Dream Again....

...the one about living in Rundle with the place full of Spiders....freaky....

Do you ever have a time when you want to blog about something becuase it happened to you but when you get home and want to type it, you found that you forgot what you wanted to blog about? Well that happened to me today....:P

I'm really peeved right now because someone on my msn had a virus on her computer and the virus automatically sends msgs to ppl asking ppl to open a file. I thought it was a pic and the message was typed in her "linguo" so I opened it and now I have a trojan horse virus in my computer. Norton picked it up and warned me about it, but it says that no action was taken on it. Why? Is it done infecting my computer or is it still running rampant? Is there anyway to get rid of this baby (if it's still around), without erasing everything on my hard drive? Anyone?

****Update

Wait, Sam took care of the problem! :P So I guess my blog's about nothing!! :P

****Update x2

Sweet Maria, what the heck is going on with Prison Break? You're going to give me a heart attack!!!

*SPOILER ALERT*




Looks like my predictions of the two possible chracters being killed off was in fact correct! Who'd a thought I'd be right on both accounts? :P

*End SPOILER ALERT*

Leo quitting YAC??

Actually, no...not that I know of haha. But I remember three of my dreams last night and one of them was of Leo telling me he was leaving YAC committee and I started panicking because he told me only and I had no idea what to do lol. Hope it's not a sign of things to come! :P

The second dream was of me teaching a gym class at Hawkwood with my old partner teacher and the phys. ed. specialist teacher. I had a dream that I was running a gym class there but I ran it how Marion Carson does it and not Hawkwood. The teachers thought I was taking too long in explaining the games so they took over and brushed me aside. What a burn!! Yeah, both schools do their gym programs completely different so that was a scary dream for me to have my teaching brushed aside haha.

The third dream I remember having was that I was back at Rundle again and I was once again looking for bugs to kill in my room. The dream was so real and I really believed I was living there again. Thank Jesus I'm not. I think I dreamt about this because after 2 years of collecting dust, I finally put Animal Crossing back in the Gamecube a few days ago and when I visited my house, it was infested with cocroaches...yeah so I guess that's why I got my dream about that....:P

I think it's pretty significant for me to remember three dreams all from one night. I've had multiple dreams on various occassions but I could never remember all of them when I woke up. Hmmm...I wonder if I keep thinking, if I can remember 4? Haha...have any of you ever done that? Who can remember all their dreams when they have multiple ones? It's so hard isn't it? Yeah baby, you know it is!!! :P

Give Me a Break

Hey everyone, it's break time for me for my lecture...1 more hour to go. I used to hate coming to the U for classes, but it's actually a nice break from the classroom and teaching. I take the opportunity to come to the U to talk to all the student teachers and it's really refreshing to be with them and to be away from the kids.

Now the Bowzoo thing is really interesting. For those of you who don't know, Jackson started some game where we can run our own zoo and buy animals and attractions. I've been experimenting a lot today with buying and selling animals/attractions and I've learnt a lot. Too bad I had to lose a few hundred bucks in the process lol. And because of that, I can't give you guys any hints MWAHAHAHHA!!! Oh well, I don't have the most animals but I do believe my animals are very unique and not too common. As for the burger stand, I can't seem to keep it. I've bought a burger stand practically 3 or 4 times but have sold it back for monies to buy other things.

One last thing about the zoo thing is that according to sources, Karen's blog is a place for her to lie. She's not saving up for an aquarium like she blogged about. Sources tell me she is going to buy the Polar Exhibit!!! :P Watch out for this monster!!! :P

Home Wrecker

Haha...well maybe more of a school wrecker. I've seriously been so discouraged about not being able to get any ideas on how to run some lessons my teacher asked me to prepare. He asked me to prepare some lessons on the phases of the moon and I literally sat there with nothing coming to mind for a few days. Man, that really tested me. I've also been teaching and my teacher has really given me some constructive feedback. He listed lots of good things, but he also listed a few suggestions here and there and for some reason, the bad stuff is always hard to listen to isn't it? I think teachers are quit insecure as it about the way they teach. I really have been questioning all of this but I feel like a big load has been lifted off my shoulders right now because the lessons are coming together. At first I felt intimidation in regards to these lessons but heck, I can DO this right? I just want to do a good job in impressing my teacher and getting a good review. My field advisor is coming to see me do one of the lessons on the moon so I guess that was another reason for my stress. Who needs two adults breathing down my neck about my teaching? Haha...it sucks, but I still want to be teachable. I know I'm already a part of this fatherless generation where I find it hard to take advice from my father, my spiritual fathers, etc. Still, I vowed to God I would try to be teachable so God, help me to be true to that. Give me a teachable attitude so I can be a good teacher myself.....:)

Preservere

Crap, I made a really bad decision in buying something on ebay. I paid wayyyy too much for that....man I hate when that happens! :P

Today, was my first day of teaching at Marion Carson and the lesson went pretty smoothly for the most part. Man oh man...the kids are quite good to me because they actually listen to me even though I haven't done much to earn their respect. Tommorrow, I will be teaching Phys. Ed. and on Wednesday, I will start the Sky Science unit. This unit makes me nervous becuase it's such an abstract concept. How do you explain the stars when you can't even bring one to class to show the kids and experiment on? Yeah, exactly!!! :P It'll be fun for the kids though because I know I loved learning about the stars so much when I was young. Oh baby, let this be good!!! :)

I've been busy lately and I have no idea why but I just can't seem to shake off the negative feelings towards student teaching. My partner teacher has been good to me so I know God's blessed me. Oh Lord just get me through this. It's so close to being finished; I can taste it. Just a little less than 10 more weeks.....it's getting better though, it really is!!! I'm trying to soak up more of God and spend more time with Him these days. I know I need to focus on Him and not on circumstance. With this refocus, I've been a lot happier. I've been at peace and I'm just enjoying my time. Wow, I've made it seem like I've had a complete change but it's just starting to get good again for me.....like as of yesterday..or maybe it was Friday lol. I seriously repented of some serious issues on Friday so maybe it was then...but Sunday was the day I started feeling super again....okay, that's enough of that. Whether it was Friday or Sunday, it's getting good....hopefully it continues that way....:)

Stories We've Got 'em!!!

Ooooh shoot....I almost forgot, I'm doing Junior Church this week.....:P Is that necessarily a bad thing though? I will be missing a sermon this week I guess....:)

I also forgot to mention that there is a student in my class who reminds me a lot of Eunice...but she's white. Her face is similar to Eunice's and so is her personality lol. It's not a bad thing...she's one of the more intellegent ones in my class.

I really am starting to like my class a whole lot more. At first, I missed my first class from last year because those grade 1 and 2 kids are cute because they're so young and innocent. However, some of these grade 6 kids are pretty smart and I'm starting to like them a whole lot more. They really impress me with their brain power. There are more boys in my class than girls and it makes everything really wonky. I love how all these white boys want to be either in the NHL, NFL or the PGA Tour when they grow up--they're such athletes haha. Some of the boys are REALLY popular with the girls in my class and that impresses me because they're developing the ability to MAC haha! Today we had indoor lunch break and the kids popped a CD in and started dancing. It's weird how they weren't self conscious about it all because I remember most kids were when I was that age....especially when the opposite gender was around.

I had to read a portion of a book to my class today and it was hard because some of the words were big and I struggled pronouncing them. I wonder if my kids think I'm a retard now lol.

My first lesson is in Math (my choice), and will be done on Monday. It's a lesson based on getting the kids to recognize patterns and produce them using manipulatives. Pray for me; pray for Mojo!!! :)

Wow, I Remember?

Today was the birthday of our assistant principal at Marion Carson: Mr. Harley Stewart. Why should you care? Well, there's an interesting story behind it all because I was only introduced to him yestrday and nothing came to mind but today however, I started to realize that I knew him from somewhere. I even remember from where: he was my grade 5 teacher from Queen's Park!! What a small world. We started talking about how "interesting" that school was and man, I'm so glad he made it out of there because he was too good for that school! :P Maybe that's why it got torched by a student and instead of rebuilding it, they built a new French school instead lol.

On another note, there is a student in my class who looks a lot like Geri. Or is it Jerry? You know: JERRY, JERRY, JERRY!!! I wonder if there is any relation there....:)

Aha Moment?

Wow, I originally wrote a really negative post about things and was editting when I heard the door bell ring. This was the second time it rang as it also rang when I was on the 'net contemplating whether I should even write the post in the first place. However, before publishing the post, I heard the door bell for the second time and decided to open the door. It wasn't anyone that I knew but let's just say after opening the door, I had a change of heart in everything. I don't know....after this experience, everything was just put into prespective and I don't know...I was definitely reminded of how I should really change my prespective on things and I just feel a huge negative feeling lifted off my shoulders......have you ever had that feeling? Wow, it's been awhile.....

Waittaminute

Today was my first day of meeting my grade 6 kids and it's funny because all I did for the most part today was obsess over trying to remember my kids' names. Most of my kids are white kids...there are only two asian kids whom one of which is ESL. Kind of weird becaue I really wanted to experience a classroom with ESL because I'm afraid I won't know what to do when I'm faced with them when I have my own class.

Despite it being exciting being in a new school, I really can't wait 'til it's all over.....I just want to finish this milestone in my life; I want to graudate and work baby!!! :P

Still, isn't it hard to accept the fact that God wants to bless us with the greatest things and yet sometimes we have to wait for this blessing? An example is just the fact that I get to finish University with two degrees but I have to wait 6 years to receive it. That's just one example, but I'm finding it is this that God holds true.

Trust. Wait. Obey. It all comes together in the end if we just hold onto these truths.

On an unrelated note, to close off, I just want to say that I just watched the news and apparently the Green Tea Frappachino at Starbucks is equivalent to 560 calories...that's about how much a quarter pounder with cheese is worth. That's also more than eating a meal of rice, veggies and non-deep fried chicken. Tell me you coffee cultured beverage drinkers: Is it worth it? :)

Living in Luxury...at the U of C!!!!

Hmmm...I'm sitting here at a computer at the U of C (in the Education Building), and the mouse really sucks bad. The comp I was using before this one had an even worse mouse...so I guess I can't complain too much about the one I'm currently using! :P

So being in my sixth year at U of C, I have realized some things that I had initially forgotten. For example, man, this place is quiet at 8am haha. I did have an 8am class once but that was so long ago...haha. I like how quiet it is during this time--no one wandering the halls aimlessly! :P

I also forgot how the U of C likes to spend money on 'useful things' like making their school look pretty but there could be other things the money could go towards instead that would make better use of the money. For example, the school has taken initative to make their student lounges look nicer all around the school and that is all cool and all because we want to study in luxury but I walked past the area by The First Cup today and it's pretty stylish...almost something taken out of Ikea. Is it necessary for the leather seats though? It looks nice...but it seems like it's all for asthetics! :P They have these funky white seats all over the place too that are pretty trendy...I wish I could describe them...but I just figured maybe they could've stuck to the usual cafeteria desks we had there in the past...:P Maybe it's not the worst use of the money but maybe it was a tad overboard too! :)

I am also learning some new things despite it being my sixth year. The joy of finding parking is one thing to name a few. I left the house at 7:50am and arrived at Brentwood Mall around 8:10ish so that's not bad! I went behind the mall to look for parking and found a few good spots haha. I remember when Jackson used to brag to me about finding a parking spot RIGHT behind the mall years ago. Maybe if I keep coming to school at this time, I will have no problems finding parking for free there. Oh how I'm going to dread those cold winter days though lol!

I made an acheivement this week...can you guess what it is? Haha....High fives all around for blogging everyday this work week!!! Yeah!! :) Haven't done that for awhile!

Anyways, see ya'll at YAC for Fire Drill @ 7:30pm at CCPC!! PAYCE!!!

Drum Role Please....

Alright two major announcments:



1) WEEEEEE!!!!! No wait, WIIIII!!!! The Nintendo Wii finally has a launch date as they will be released November 19th. Mark you calenders peeps! The system is stated to go for $250 US--that's cheaper than what I originally bought my Gamecube for!!! The games are also suppose to be around $50 US each. For PS3 fans, the PS3 will experience some delays as only 400 000 units will ship to North America during the launch while for the Wii, there will be 4 million units shipped for its launch worldwide!! Yeah baby, Wii all the way! For more info on this news, and for info on Wii's awesome features (like weather capabilities and ability to download old nintendo classics), check out :IGN



2) Buffy/Angel/Serenity on Runaways? Hmmm...everyone knows I'm a Runaways comic junkie and I've been bragging about how critically acclaimed it is. Well, after 3 years, the original creators are leaving the title only to be written by Joss Whedon, the awesome creator of Buffy/Angel/Serenity!!! He's been doing a great job writing Astonishing X-Men as of lately, generating lots of buzz for Marvel Comics. Man, I can't wait for this guy to start writing Runaways. I think he can take this #94 book in the top 100 and bring it to the top 10!! Just please don't kill Molly or Nico...I beg of you!!!! :P

Hmmm...I'm having a tough time waking up early. I set my clock to 10am but just woke up...something is really wrong with me I think. Today is my last day off until Thanksgiving. WAHHHHH!!! :( It's okay; it's only 3 weeks away right? :(

You Know That Feeling Where You Know Someone but You Don't Know From Where?

AHHHH!! I woke up late today for school and I had to rush out the door and pay $5 at the Art Parkade to get to class on time! Man, what a rip off!!! :P

So today was the first day of school and though there were no classes, I really enjoyed seeing my old education friends again. Man, these will be my friends for years to come...I really hope I'll have a chance to work with them at some point in the future! :)

After orientation, I met up with Jon Chu and Velia for some Moxie's action at Market Mall and we did some shopping there too. During the shopping time, I ran into this girl from education and it was weird because I saw her today during orientation too. I didn't say "hi" to her because I never had her in any of my classes and yet I feel like I've met her before and so when we saw each other at the store, we made eye contact and started staring at each other. She said she knew me from somewhere and I said the same thing about her too. Weird. We introduced ourselves and talked about who we knew and stuff but we couldn't figure out how we knew each other. That is just so bizarre. This is going to bug me all night!!! :P Where do I know her from!?!?!

Closure is Everything

And isn't it true that closure is the most important thing to feel? Well, I know some people who can tell me that they've never had closure on situations they've faced in life but I think if you look clearly, you can find enough indications to help you reach verdicts to obtain closure.

It's so important for people to reach this state I think because we need peace. We need to know that that door has closed; we need to know that we don't need to look back in life and wonder, "what if?"

I've always tried living my life with no regrets. Honestly, I hope I can continue living like that because I need it for my own sanity. I need to know that what I was once open to is now a closed door before I can fully move on.

Trust is also everything. God help me to trust in You. Everything is test after test I feel. Help me not to lose sight of You despite all the trials that seem to bombard me.

“Teach me your way, O LORD, and I will walk in your truth; give me an undivided heart, that I may fear your name.” Psalm 86:11 (NIV)

Analyse

"Why'd you have to go and make things so complicated?"-- Avril Lavigne

Okay, probably not the wisest person to get words from, but at this point, she seems pretty intellegent by coming up with a line like this. :P But seriously, what is with the tendency to make things so messed up? I think if you see a good thing, keep it simple. What's with the ability for us to overthink things and therefore making a situation messy? Seriously, the messier it becomes, the less desirable it all seems. Who'd a thought happiness would be this hard to attain? Maybe 'happiness' isn't what I want anymore. They say the end justifies the mean but is there an outcome to it all? Is it all pointless? Tell me that isn't so; tell me that there's a light at the end of this tunnel for us.....

I've said it before and I'll say it again: If I can't have what I want, I won't settle for anything less....