Hooray for Everything!

Maybe you're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all you're my Wonderwall....--Oasis

Currently I'm feeling very well rested. This was the first day I slept before 1 am and overall, that just energizes me way more for the entire day. I've been sleeping at 4am lately and it's been a terrible feeling afterwards. I have no desire to do anything but lounge at home on those days...:) Maybe I'll do something active today :P

So I opened up my Lost season 2 and watched the bloopers/deleted scenes/lost flashbacks and let me tell you, I'm so geared up to watch the new season....just one more month away baby!!! :)

I downloaded some songs from the new Hillsongs album and I know I told a lot of you I wasn't going to buy it, but I'm inclined to do quite the opposite now. I still have to go to CP to pick up the new Jars of Clay so maybe I'll just go pick up the Mighty to Save CD as well....*sigh...we'll see how it goes. :P

Anyways, it's a beautiful and glorious day so I need to get out of the house....is anyone up for hanging out later tonight though (like after dinnerish)? We need a house to lounge at!!! :) Anyone? Anyone? :)

For Love or Money

"Girls don't like boys, girls like cars and money" --Good Charlotte

The above quote just cracks me up because I used to listen to this song so much but I can honestly say it's been awhile since I've put a Good Charlotte tune on....that is, until today! :) Seriously, is the above quote true? Hmmm....I have no idea if it's a generalization that can be stated about ALL girls but one thing I can't help but to wonder: maybe this song should've been written by asians because it certain describes Chinese girls doesn't it? :P Am I going to get ANGRY comments about this? You know a lot of my female friends I've known have been asian and though many are like sisters to me, you know I can't help but to notice that this sentence applies to them. However, I know there are some exceptions out there and for those of you who have found love despite a giant paycheck I say "kudos" to you! :)

We had a talk last night at Jon's house about this....is marrying someone who's well off really marrying for love? Or is it just settling for the stable guy? Everyone has a dream of what they want in a guy/girl but if you compromise all that for the sake of stability, is that really going after all you've dreamt about or is it just settling? I'm actually not convinced that it's either or, but it is a good point to be raised. Hmmm...I've pondered this question but I think also that as you grow older, your tastes change. You know what you want more and you suddenly realize that what was important at one point is no longer important for the long-term.

Hmmm...it's really funny how much I think about relationships. I think I'm just a guy looking for love but I think I'm looking in the right places right now so that's a good sign. I try to be a realist in so many ways but I can't help but to be that hopelessly romantic guy....well, not one of those Hollywood type romantics...maybe I'm a REALISTIC ROMANCER!! Seriously, God I think is The Greatest Romancer of them all so maybe I'm just bearing the image of this God I serve!!! :)

It was surprising to me to find that so many of my buddies are actively looking for their "beauty to rescue" during a discussion I had with them recently. It just makes me feel a lot better about what's on my mind because I know I'm not the only one....so here's to all the ladies out there: May you fiind your knight in shining armour and may it truly be the love you've always wanted. Hopefully he carries not necessarily a big paycheque with him, but a love for you that fulfills your desires more than any human being ever could. Soulmate, I know I'm closer to finding you....so may God prepare you for me and me for you....I'll find you soon so wait for me.... :)

****Update: Man did I just write all the above stuff?!?!? I think I'm gonna puke! :P****

Carefully Being Care Free

Wow, I am super tired today! I woke up at noonish and played some tennis with some of the guys today and came home after only an hour! Man, it was hot out there and I will be playing some tennis tommorrow so that should be fun! :)

The weekend has been fun with the mini golfing, bowling, Balderdashing (which I left at Geo's house...oops!), the pillow fights and even the new lizard friend we made at Geo's house....:) I'll let him write about that since it's his story but still...what a funny and unexpected thing to happen! :)

Well it really feels like a blast from the past putting this blog template back up. This was always my favorite template...hopefully it'll work for Geo's computer this time....:P No one is ever happy with my templates...I have no idea why there are so many issues but hopefully all will be well with this. :)

I'm feeling very happy these days. I just feel very refreshed and reenergized but I am still missing DESIRE. I think things will pick up when practicum starts up but until then, I'll just pretend like I don't need to have a care in the world! :) Here's to a relaxing rest of the holidays! :)

September 18th Officially

Hooray! I called my partner teacher to ask him if he wanted me at the school earlier to scope his class out and plan things with him but he told me he didn't expect me to come earlier so then we established we would see each other Sept. 18th. Sweet!!! I know some teachers expect you to come earlier to get to know the class and all but so far, it seems like my teacher is a bit more relaxed....I think he was surprised by the fact that I would want to come earlier....seems easy going. It's still awkward to talk to him on the phone but I hope we become good friends by the end of it all. :)

Men's group went smoothly last night and what really surprises me is how open some of the guys are about themselves and that's really cool because I usually don't know what these guys are thinking so it's nice for them to verbalize things. I really feel like I understand things better...but some things said by some of the guys are completely surprising haha....so far so good though :P

It's been a blast this week just hanging out with friends as the end of the summer draws near. I'm going to miss Cathie, Alicia and Crystal but I know that fate will bring us together once again. One thing I've learnt in the past few years is to not linger on the past and just to look forward to the future. What's in store for "Mr. Wong?" Hmmm...I'll tell you when I figure things out.. ; ' )

A Touch of Jazz

Today was a day of tennis and the weather was a bit windy at first, but things got better as the afternoon progressed. Holy Hannah, can Karen serve a ball! It's impressive and she hits harder than most guys can! I think she usually gets at least 50% of her serves in with all that power!!! :)

So right now, I'm reading multiple books and the one I'm enjoying the most is "Blue Like Jazz." It's just so...real!!! I am just getting sick of church cliches...I'm getting sick of boring Christianity. Is this how Jesus intended church to be? I really can't agree when some say how good church is honestly. Despite the potential for great things, there is so much potential for the bad too. Unfortunately, it's just too easy to notice the bad and I know none of us are perfect but if that's the way a church operates do you think people would come swirming in just to be a part of all that is wrong? I'm really trying though...I'm trying to not be a bigot about how so many at church are bigots in some shape or form. The irony in that just cracks me up--but not in a "haha" kind of way LOL. I'm trying not to let myself succum to the pettiness, baggage, superficiality, pride, etc. I unfortunately witness. All I can do is relax, not let it get to me but does that mean sweeping it under a rug so that I don't have to do deal with it? I still haven't decided yet....

The author of the book challenged me to do change my thinking when it comes to church under the chapter, "Church: How to go without getting angry." The funny thing is, this was the chapter I noticed first when glancing through the table of contents at Christian Publications and then I thought, "God wants me to buy this book!" :)

A strong message in the book and that I've been hearing over and over lately is that Jesus must be put into action. I need to go beyond the walls of this building we call church and go out into the world and do things like helping the poor, visiting those in prison, fighting for social justice, etc. I know God is telling me this but I'll be honest...God, I am finding it REAL hard to be acting on this conviction despite knowing that is what you probably expect of me to do. Can you help me Lord? Can you help me not to be so selfish? God, I'm just so caught up in it all...I've been programmed to just focus on worldly things: money, vanity, toys, my own personal happiness, etc. God forgive me but help me to change....I don't have the strength to do it and I am not too proud to confess that I'm too weak to do this....

The book says that if we truly want something, we can gain the deepest desires of our hearts. However, those deepest desires are usually not the best things for us. They are things of darkness. If we were to focus less on the deepest longings of our hearts, then we can truly start bringing heaven to here on Earth in the present day....God help us all.....

House Husband Duties (minus the Husband part :P)

Okay, today was a pretty relaxing day in the sense that I had nothing important to do haha. However, remember how I said I had to contribute to the household now that I'm driving? Well, today was the full initiation for me as I had to do some grocery shopping at Wal-Mart and Sobeys. It was actually more stressful than I thought it would be as I had a list of things to buy and when I couldn't find the exact thing I wanted, I would call my bro and ask him if it was okay if I found a substitute. Haha...and then there's the price checking and the budgeting happening in my head. I didn't want to spend too much money as I had added to the list of things to buy and I didn't want my bro to think, "why do you always add things on? Do we need all this stuff?" Man, the pressure! It took me 1.5 hours to get the pressurious grocery stuff done but it was a relaxing type of pressure. I'd take that kind of pressure over the classroom any day haha.

When I got home, my bro asked me, "Why didn't you buy more stuff? I thought you'd buy some lunch stuff for yourself".....and then I had to explain that I didn't want to to add on too much as everyone seems to think I'm a spend-a-holic! :) Well, now I know, I can add on baby!!!

One of the things I bought today that was an add-on was a new lamp for the living room. It was only 12 bucks and it's pretty nice.

We shared one the white peaches Jenny gave me today and it was super deliscio!! :) Man, I wish we had more than 2 of these in our house....*sigh...why are fruits so good?

Speaking of food, tonight is steak night with zuchinni and mushrooms. It smells so good...I can't wait to eat dinner tonight!!! :)

Cleaning Fruit Racks

It's funny how since I've been driving I've been finding myself contributing more to the household. Yes that's right, I went out a few times this week just to buy some fruit for this household. I bought some apples and bananas. The funny thing is, my bro came home with bananas the same night so we have tons of those!! I also relectantly purchased pineapple because once that fruit is cut in this household, it's gone by the next day! We love our pineapple and I find it funny how it disappears faster than mango in our household. I also purchased some cherries and those are expensive!! However, it was worth it because they're freakin' sweet...tasting that is!!!

I found myself finally doing some cleaning yesterday too so praise be to God that I'm not as lazy as I could've been when it comes to getting down to business.

I also purchased some discounted DVD racks from Home Outfitters for myself and my eldest bro. It was important to go there because I already have one from there so my new racks had to match my old one. Well I guess Home Outfitters isn't going to be producing anymore? These racks were discounted and were tucked away in some corner so I take it they won't be stocking these racks iin the forseeable future.

Man Builder 101

Yesterday was the first day of our Men's Group Meeting and I think I ate too much food that day. :P Can we make a pack to NEVER bring chips ever again to those kind of events? Heck, anytime our church meets at a friend's house, can we just not bring chips?!?! I can't say "no;" I have a weakness to potatoes. :P

So it looks like we're going to go through "Wild at Heart" and it will be interesting becuase I've read this before...but I'm interested in seeing what my brothers will get out of this bad boy. I really loved this book and I know a few others in the group too...Steve really pushed for this one so I hope you get a lot of it! :)

On another note, I've lost the list of qualities I made a few years ago detailing what I'm looking for in a woman. I think I wanted to update the list anyways by adding a few things and taking a few things off so it's about time I made some changes. Just being at the Men's thing last night made me think about it a lot more...maybe she's out there...but better yet, maybe she's in my face but I just don't know what I'm looking for....hence the need for the list.....:)

For those who were asking, the girl on my wallpaper is a clone of Wolverine nammed X-23--she is not Wolverine's girlfriend or anything!!! :P She's probably like 14 years old...but she's just as deadly as the original Canucklehead. Isn't she wicked? Man, I love the claws in her feet!!! :)

And as for the picture, it's the cover art from Annihilation # 1: a cosmic crossover in the Marvel Universe. I wasn't going to pick this up but man, I bought issue one and I loved it! We haven't had a Marvel Cosmic Event in ages...who remembers the days of the Infinity Gauntlet, Infinity War and Infinity Crusuade?!? Oh baby...I have missed the heroes in space....welcome back Silver Surfer!!! :)

Something Nice

One of my youth asked me how I was doing and that's so different because it's rare for a youth to ask me when it's usually me who asks them about their lives. I told my youth last night that I was in the process of figuring things out in my life and that lately, I've not been doing so super. I basically said I hoped I could spend some more time with God to get things together. The youth said this to me:

"oooo of course u can because you have Sundays and Fridays. Try to fit time at night before you go to sleep and alwayz think about Him whenever you're doing somthing because He's in you....okay, I don't know where those words came from!"

Haha, it was nice for the youth to say to me and it actually did really encourage me. I've been doing a lot better in general because right now I'm just relaxing and having a good time with friends from school and from church over the course of these past few days. And as for where those words came from, they came from God!! I know You were speaking to me Lord through this teen God and for that I thank You.

I think I need to pick up a book during the remaining time of my break. I'm thinking it's finally time to read "The Sacred Romance" that Gooi bought me oh so many years ago!

On another note, I have been looking at Digital Cameras and Electric Shavers for the past few days and have come up with nothing. I really want the electric shaver but have not been able to bring myself to buy it....I'm really debating...for what it does, I don't know if it's worth it. Besides, I do like the smell of shaving...I have no idea why....I think shaving cream smells good...makes me feel like the man I am!! Haha. The shaving cream and the use of a razor is just such a guy thing. The only reason I want the electric one is because of convinience.

As for the Digital Camera, I think I can wait 'til Christmas. I want one for that ocassion. I need to stop buying all these gadgets and toys for myself haha. At least it shows I just don't rush into purchases all the time....giving it lots of thought!! :)

Searching for It....

I feel like the weight of the world is crashing down on me
And somehow I just don't believe this how its suppose to be
All this expectation on the way I'm suppose to live
Becomes my minds distraction with nothing left to give

[Prechorus]
You said your burden is light & Your load is no more
You said your ways are right & in You I will soar

[Chorus]
I want to be free, Free to dance & free to sing
Free to live & learn & free oh, free to be me

I feel like my heart is being beat down into the ground,
In you I'm longing for some peace to be found

Lyrics above taken from "Free" by Shawn McDonald

My Decision:

"If I can't have what I want, I won't settle for anything less......" --Unknown

@ camp

Note to self: next year, bring own toilet paper. This one ply stuff is ripping me apart from the inside......

This is How it REALLY Is...

Okay so most people who've come up to me think I'm a woman hater now because of what I've been writing on my blog and because of the response I've been getting from my fellow friends but really, I'm not. If there are any lies going around about me now being a woman hater, you must rebuke those that are saying such things!!! :P

I'm not a hater; I'm just really frustrated okay? :P Not to say that I'm not ready to move on 'cuase I am. God has really been healing me in a lot of ways and He reminds me of why things happen for a reason. I just had conformation of why things are the way they are recently. I knew it wouldn't work out and I'm glad I got out of it before things got worse. Jesus, help me to trust in You for the best blessing. I'm ready for whatever you have in store for me so if it's in Your will, bring it on!!!

So I'm sitting at the church right now while the kids are watching "Finding Nemo" for probably the 20th time, but it's raining out and we can't go outside and play games. I just finished preparing stuff for YAC though....you know, like getting slides together for my set together and I'm doing a talk on Spiritual Warfare so hopefully I can prep the kiddies for camp by giving them info on demons and opression and such haha. Do you think they'll take it well or will they be peeing in their pants? :) Either way, this discussion will be interesting mwahaha.....:)

I'm Old Enough to Know Better

Is it just me or do a lot of girls like to play games? I swear there are so many mind bending activities that girls like to put us through and for what cause? For example, there's the blame shift game. A girl can do something wrong and then when you get upset about it, they make you feel like crap becuase you got upset with them in the first. The one who offends becomes the victim!!! :P

Don't get me started on trying to decide where to eat or what to do for an activity. When you ask a lot of girls what they want to do, you get a "oh I don't care...you decide!" When you make the push for something you really want to do or for a place you really want to eat you get a "oh, I don't feel like that today...why don't we go do this....." And sometimes, they won't make the follow up suggestion right away. The guy has to make 10 suggestions before a girl will tell us what she really wants to do. If you wanted to do that in the first place, why didn't you just say so in the first place?!?!? :P

There are many games assoicated with manipulating us dumb-headed boys. Don't get me started on "The chase" for a girl....are you interested or are you not?!?!

When I was younger, I had a lot of female friends and honestly, I didn't think that men and women were that different in terms of being friends with each other. Boy, was I ever retarded! Jon Chu and I have had talks about this....it really does seem like "men are from Mars and women are from Venus!!!" Will we ever fully understand each other?!?!?

I'm getting too tired of all of this. I am so burnt out from activities associated with relationships. Seriously God, this is my prayer....if you want me to marry someone in my lifetime, please give me the strength to do this because I am definitely running out of it on my own......

Drive Shaft

Well actually, not Charlie's band from "Lost" but I was forced to drive last night as I lost my precious gold necklace with jade cross on it after Tony's birthday/housewarming party. I called Tony and Jenny to see if the thing was anywhere near them, but there was no luck for me there. I decided to drive myself (despite it being (3-3:30ish am) to find the necklace. Thank you Jesus!!! I found it lying about where Jackson was parked--it must've fell out of my pocket when I got in his car. That necklace is worth $$$ so thank you Jesus that the necklace was found and thus I can avoid a lecture from the mother. :)

Speaking of driving, today I had lunch with Jon Wong and Alicia and I got to drive around town. First I picked up Allie and then we went for some Diner Deluxe action, then to Sunridge Mall and then finally to my place to watch Office Space. Now I can FINALLY say I've seen the movie and understand what people are talking about when mentioning things from the flick! :P Good times; good times!!! :)

So PTL, it turns out I'm not as bad as a driver as I thought as I haven't crashed yet. Keep me safe when on the roads I pray Lord. Amen. :)

Zoo Trips Make Me Tired and Weary! :P

So today was Zoo day at DVBS and it was aight. The kids Jon and I had in our group were a handful and they weren't really into the whole animal thing so I can really relate to them. The Zoo was never one of my favorite DVBS trips because of the fact that we have to walk so so much to see these animals and for what--to stare at it for 10 seconds and leave? Not much of a reward for such effort! :P

What I do like about the Zoo is the cool playground. In past years, we just spent an hour or so there and talked while the kids played and this year was no different! We even ran into Alice and Karina Kung there too! I'm still anticipating the day where I'll see a Panda and a Cheetah though...definitely two of my favorite animals!! :) Oh well, at least I saw the Zebra and the Lions! :)

On another note, I finally got my insurance for the Civic! :) I went driving today adn things went rather smoothly. I was quite nervous at first since it has been 6 or so years since I've last driven. In fact, today was the first time I've ever driven by myself! I still need to practice everything but it'll take a long time until I'm comfortable on the roads completely let alone the church parking lot! :P

I'm Just a Dead Man

Wow, I just opened up 11 figures from the new Marvel Legends set I ordered. I payed for these bad boys in April and just got them tonight. My hands are sore and it took me about an hour to carefully open stuff up! :) Finally a HAVOK figure!!!!! :)

Today was a day out with the guys as we played some Tennis and went out for Chinese food. I can't wait until our fellowship/bible study/cell group starts meeting up regularly on Wednesday; I already feel such blessings from these hang outs. :)

I'm tired today. This will be a busy week again as I have to get all the planning for Social done this long weekend. I can't wait 'til camp is over in a sense because it'll mean I can finally have a TRUE holiday break....but then again, I can't wait for camp to begin period as it will be very rewarding I'm sure. I want to meet God and I need to prepare my heart for it.

On another note, what's wrong with me? Okay, it didn't hit me at first but I've just gotten myself out of a 2 year relationship (but in fact my heart has been committed longer). At first, I wasn't in anguish but why does it feel like a part of my soul is missing now? I feel like I've lost a best friend. Is it crazy to be in love with someone still after all this? Can I ever let myself become vulnerable again to anyone or is this the untimely end of Kingston? :(

Answers

It's been very interesting to see how God's been answering things I've been praying about in the past week. Okay--I'll admit it--I'm one of the worst people to ask to pray for things. Usually when I hear a prayer request, I say a quick prayer for the person so that I've "done my task required" but I honestly do it half-heartedly (sorry!).

Well I've been praying all week for the jobless to get interviews and that's what He's been doing for my friends. I praise God becuase I really did pray for Andrew to get a decent job this week! I know it's not about me...it wasn't me that got him that job...but maybe I could've been a better supportive brother in doing what I could and praying is about all I could do.

I've been praying for Robert's dad all week too and praise God that things look pretty clear. It looks as if the chemo has been successful!!! God keep him healthy!

There have been discouragements about the no pastor issue at CPC and it was really sad for me to feel them but it worse to hear them from others. God is so good though because of the prospect of a potential pastor coming on board at CPC soon. I've been praying for that lately too.

There have been other things too but I won't get into details about it all. God is so ready to pour out His blessings on us and that is just so exciting!!! Hmmm..what else to pray for?! We definitely need new and younger leaders and new musicians!!! :P

On another note, today was the first day for a few new leaders in DVBS and I'm glad to have you all on board. I really pray that you guys will become better friends and that everyone will be plugged into the body with each other. I have a real big heart for this one youth who hasn't been plugged into many of our youth and it breaks my heart seeing that person living life like a lonely soldier. I pray that no one has to live life that way....because we're called to be a body and to find strength in each other. Man, I can't believe DVBS is almost over...You guys are great haha!!! Keep up the great work! :)

We also watched episode 2 of Angel Wars today and man it was SO GOOD! Daniel said that they can't watch it at South E. Free becuase it's too violent but really, this cartoon is WAY better than Veggie Tales....more violent..haha...well it's not that bad...it's just a cartoon. :P I mean come on...there was fighting in The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe and that's a Christian allegory!! I don't think we should limit ourselves by only watching Veggie Tales all the time at church.....:P

Yeet Hey Ah!!!

Mmmmm...oh baby, I love the taste of fresh pineapple!!! Too bad it's full of what asians call "hot air".....and no, that's not gas for those of you who don't know what I'm talking about! If it wasn't for this "hot air," I'd eat endless pineapple! :)

Today at DVBS, we went to Let's Play and let me tell you the place has gotten worse there! They used to be awesome but the ball lounging area is now gone and clossed off, the four square is gone and so are the basketball nets and this makes the whole place smaller. The staff was actually not as friendly as they could've been and the food was still a bit slow....but they've always been that way haven't they?!?! Still, things went by really fast today...especially with the game of "leader tag." Poor Sunny had a fever though...what a trooper.....:)

I had a great talk with Auntie Anita today about topics ranging from ministry and relationships and a lot of other things. I hope Grace makes the choice to become a YAC leader as her mom is very understanding and supportive of it. Looking back from when they were all kids, who'd a thought that some of these would be considering joining YAC leadership?!?! I just pray for them all to make the right choice for them...whatever that may be. I have a feeling at least 2 people might say no to the invitation...but if that's in God's will, that's still the right thing. I have a feeling at least 2 will say yes. The other two, I have no idea but I'm hoping for the "yes." :)

We picked up our new car today and boy do I love the smell of a new car. We have been very faithful to Hondas in this family so I figure when I buy a new car, it should be a Honda as well. I love it! I just hope I will be satisfied driving the old car of ours....heck, I hope I will get lots of opportunities to drive it!!!! :P


Well tommorrow is the Amazing Race so I hope to see you all there! It starts at 6:30pm. Be prpared to get some exercise!!! :) I was going to make it like the reality show but to simplify things, the game has been altered to one giant task full of riddles.....:P That's all for the clues I'll give....and remember your change (nickels, dimes, and quarters), or else you need to bring your fully charged cell phone....:)

Reality Sinks In

So it's been a confusing week. Honestly, the last week has been so frustrating for me and it's funny because Martin talked about how life can be like this at YAC last week. There is so much noise all around us. There's what God tells us, what we tell ourselves, the voices of the world and other noises we hear when we journey in life.

I wish information didn't circulate so easily. It's not that I'm a private person...haha...far from! I love telling everyone what's on my mind any given moment! However, sometimes the less people around me know about things, the easier it is for me to make a decision. There's just so many people pulling me in different directions. One thing I remember is that I only need to take information in account when it's from a CREDIBLE source. Also, though I take into account all that is spoken, I must remember that it is ME/I/KINGSTON that makes the final decision. It's my life; I'll have to deal with the consequences of my decisions. Still, I'm loving every moment of all of this I'm frustrated with. I'm really showing my true colours to myself. I think I'm a bigger coward than I thought. I think I don't honestly know what it is to be a true man....(though I'm learning!!!). Please be patient with me--I'm a work in progress!!! :)